Venting The pills are making it worse/nightmares about the psyche ward

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I failed my suicide attempt and was locked in a psyche ward for almost 2 months. It was terrible. People were mean, nurses didn't listen, got put into the "troubled" hall even though I'm very calm and had to fight to get out of there. The pills they put me on aren't working. If anything, they're making me worse. I can't tell if it's placebo because I hate pills but I feel sleepy after taking them and am still suicidal, if not more so. I have nightmares about that stupid hospital every other night. It sucked. They put me there to torture me, not make me better.