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primadonna_

primadonna_

the internet angel
Jan 10, 2026
48
I don't think people realize that there really is no "regret" when it comes to this.

First thing you have to acknowledge is that you're just your brain. Not your body. This is just some shell that your brain controls, and without your brain you are nothing. You are your mind. When people die, so do their brains. There are nothing more to people then their minds, once those are gone, they are too. Your memories, your fear, your regret.. and if you're worried about how it'll affect other people, by the time it's over, you'll have no concept that those people even existed. Guilt will not exist for you, nothing will. The only thing that will be left is the body you controlled, that doesn't hold any memories, it can't make you feel bad. There's no conscience left there— your concept of literally anything will be gone. The concept of selfishness, the concept of other people caring… so it really doesn't matter in the end anyway. Get that through your head, and if you do it right maybe you'll get the balls to do it.

ur welcome hope its painless
 
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_wishforwings

Forever is such an unpleasant word.
Feb 4, 2026
57
I mean I do think most people realize that by the time you're dead, you won't be able to feel the guilt or anything, but just knowing it will affect them can be rough.. For me I've really just gotten to a point where I genuinely don't think it'll be too hard on most people in my life, and then the select few I can't help but know it'll be hard on, even if it's hard for them they really just have to get over it eventually, as messed up as it might be to say.. Of course the pain of a death doesn't really always fully subside it but time helps to heal it. Honestly if someone is really really stuck up on how others will react I kind of think they aren't fully ready yet, because I feel like at some point it got so bad for me that I kind of just don't consider it much anymore, I don't want to say I don't care, but it just like doesn't outweigh the pain I feel and urge to be gone.
 
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aufrechtm7

aufrechtm7

My Hachikō
Feb 14, 2026
291
First half really depends on someone's spiritual views, but I agree
 
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chaoschuckler

chaoschuckler

Unfit for World
Feb 4, 2026
9
I don't think people realize that there really is no "regret" when it comes to this.

First thing you have to acknowledge is that you're just your brain. Not your body. This is just some shell that your brain controls, and without your brain you are nothing. You are your mind. When people die, so do their brains. There are nothing more to people then their minds, once those are gone, they are too. Your memories, your fear, your regret.. and if you're worried about how it'll affect other people, by the time it's over, you'll have no concept that those people even existed. Guilt will not exist for you, nothing will. The only thing that will be left is the body you controlled, that doesn't hold any memories, it can't make you feel bad. There's no conscience left there— your concept of literally anything will be gone. The concept of selfishness, the concept of other people caring… so it really doesn't matter in the end anyway. Get that through your head, and if you do it right maybe you'll get the balls to do it.

ur welcome hope its painless
I need to hear this today, thanks and wish me luck . I wish the same to you
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
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I think we can still be concerned about causing harm in future though. Especially if it's someone we care about. Even if we are considering performing an action that will likely cause harm in the future or- even harm we won't necessarily need to witness- simply realising that what we're considering doing will hurt others may give us pause to worry about that. Do we only care about the harm we might do if we have to witness it or, we might get into trouble for doing it?
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,613
That is why ceasing to exist is all I see as positive, all I want is to be permanently unconscious of this terrible, dreadful and torturous existence that just causes all this cruelty, harm and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured.

The peace of non-existence solves everything for me, to never suffer again in this dreadful existence is just all I see as desirable, to me existence will always just be the most terrible mistake that just tortures existing beings and I always find it torture to be conscious in this existence, I just want all to be gone, forgotten and erased for me with no more pain and no more suffering.
 
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hurb

hurb

I care too much to give a f*ck
Jan 22, 2026
296
Yeah there is no proof rhe world still exists if u cease to exist.
After all , it only exists rn because you are perceiving it.
It's similar to how u could live ur whole life without knowing ww2 happened. Did it rly happen if u didnt perceive it , if u never knew about it ?
The universe everything around us , in a sense , u interacting with it makes it real.
Without u there wont be nothing
 
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webb&flow

webb&flow

dum spiro spero—take it as it comes
Nov 30, 2024
547
I don't think people realize that there really is no "regret" when it comes to this.
Regret is past-tense pain, fear is future-tense pain; and each can be as pernicious as each other, as pernicious as pain in the present-tense, from an active paroxysm freshly touched. Because of the odd way we may comprehend time, it is fully possible to regret doing something before we've even done it. Have you ever experienced this odd phenomena? I have. Emotions are odd things indeed, our perceptions even odder; both curious indeed.

Regret, fear, suffering, what are all these words but flavours of pain? Let me appeal to your physicalist view of mind; I will analyse the practical ramifications of the word and thing we are gesturing to, "death".

My concerns are pragmatic, and I think that even if regret and being dead may not mix easily, that there are other things that seep into the blend, of conscious experience regarding this. There are many things people may not realize, or put off mind; I hope to draw more out of what is often glossed aside by people, in these words.

The concept of selfishness, the concept of other people caring… so it really doesn't matter in the end anyway. Get that through your head, and if you do it right maybe you'll get the balls to do it.

"having the balls to do it"—I don't agree that being scared or unable to commit suicide is a sign of "cowardice", but is rather a rational fear of the very real pain that suicide certainly involves.

It's not like what the doctor says before an injection, "this won't hurt", but much the contrary. "This does hurt."

Guilt and bodily pain can strongly afflict, easily at their most severe, during the act of suicide. I think it is a truth that ought be kept in mind. Is it better to say that it will be painless and have someone be shocked by pains untold? I say it would be better to be upfront, about what it really can be.

Of course being 6 feet under and strongly regretting things can't be easily done simultaneously. But I call your mind to realize the space between that, the severe ramifications of conscious experience that the act involves, and to recognize this exactly as it is, without caveat.

One can state death itself is a state of no conscious experience, therefore no pain. But one cannot be dead, without going through the entire process of dying. (And that is assuming it even goes without being botched; in such a complex system as the human body or brain, this is easier said than done.)

The process of dying is one that fully involves the conscious mind: it is all the pain that is associated unto death, without any of the reprieve associated unto death.

Because death mandates dying, the statement "death is painless" should be further inspected. I recognize differing interpretations of this statement.

0. "Death is painless".
1. "Death is a painless state."
2. "The experience of death (i.e. dying) is painless."

Painlessness is ironically also a conscious experience, in the same way that darkness is a visual experience even if it is not seeing anything. One cannot see nothing without seeing. As for definitions of painlessness, I would personally define it (you are free to differ) as not merely the absence of pain but absence of pain within conscious experience. I think painlessness and "raw nothing" are not the same thing, because if there is no body or mind to bear that painlessness, it's no different from describing death as absolute anhedonia or absolute depression: that is, it ascribes a conscious state and experience to an unconscious state, or rather, a non-state, a non-experience. Death is a state of not being, but if there is no thing, how could it be in any state at all? To be is a verb. How is one capable of being an agent that perform a verb if they are not present to perform the verb? It's like a baby's mother failing to show up to their birth. (À la Doofenschmirtz.)

I have spent much of this text deciphering more concrete definitions of the too-vaguely abstract original notion of "Death is painless", further exploring definition and philosophy behind the statement "Death is a painless state", and adding to the frame of reference "The experience of death (i.e. dying) is painless".

For the conscious agent, conscious experience is certainly an unforgoable concern. The severe unintended complications of dying, that include the very pains one is attempting to cure, unfortunately end up being not only part of but utterly intractable from the state of death. One cannot be dead without dying, and dying is a difficult, strenous, and painful thing indeed.
 
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truehappiness

Bliss and Happiness to all <3
Mar 3, 2026
120
I don't think people realize that there really is no "regret" when it comes to this.

First thing you have to acknowledge is that you're just your brain. Not your body. This is just some shell that your brain controls, and without your brain you are nothing. You are your mind. When people die, so do their brains. There are nothing more to people then their minds, once those are gone, they are too. Your memories, your fear, your regret.. and if you're worried about how it'll affect other people, by the time it's over, you'll have no concept that those people even existed. Guilt will not exist for you, nothing will. The only thing that will be left is the body you controlled, that doesn't hold any memories, it can't make you feel bad. There's no conscience left there— your concept of literally anything will be gone. The concept of selfishness, the concept of other people caring… so it really doesn't matter in the end anyway. Get that through your head, and if you do it right maybe you'll get the balls to do it.

ur welcome hope its painless
You are not even your brain :D
That is important to note!
Your brain is still seperate from you. It is more the CPU, RNG and SSD for you.

You are the operating system running on top of it all.
You can not control your own physical body in many ways except the intended ways. There are a lot of random factors inside of you that have a shitload of influence over you. So, for example, your brain deciding to not release Dopamine or Serotonine anymore ^^ Or changing brain patterns so that you get other mental illnesses

And I agree
No CTB attempt is selfish. It is your life and yours alone. Do with your hardware whatever you wish for <3
If you are no longer there people will be sad for a little bit and then you become nothing but another point in the statistic in the grand scheme of things and the story "of that one person that killed themselves" that will be told every few years.
 

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