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Makko

Makko

Iä!
Jan 17, 2021
2,430
I see a pesistent tendency, not just here but generally in despondent people, to be able to pinpoint a single source for all the evils in their lives.

If only I had money, everything would have been fine.

If only I had romance, everything would have been fine.

If only I had wise parents, everything would have been fine.

If only I had something to do, everything would have been fine.

If only I had opportunities, everything would have been fine.

If only I had peace of mind, everything would have been fine.

If only I didn't have this addiction or disease, everything would have been fine.

Is this actually how it works? I was skeptical at first, but over time I do notice that if they someone gain the one thing they seem to be missing, they stop complaining. There's obviously truth to this. This amazing ability to identify The One Problem runs contrary to the general inadequacy of human self-analysis.

Why can't I do it, then? Where is my One Problem? Where is the dragon that I have to slay to put out this fire? I can't see it. Everything that I want and can name, I have. There's something that I need to have that cannot be named. I feel like a crayon stick figure trying to rise up from the paper and reach towards the sky. Whatever it is I want but don't have is in a dimension as inaccessible to me as the 3D world is to the stick figure. I can infer that it exists, but I can't begin to even imagine what it is, and I can never go there and experience it.

What is it the One Thing you don't have?
 
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Fin

Fin

Normality is a crowd-sourced fantasy.
Apr 20, 2019
93
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Avyn

Avyn

Experienced
Jan 27, 2021
223
I wish I had good parents that wouldn't be abusive and would actually love me
I wish I had friends that believed me when I told them about the abuse
I wish I had money since that's the only thing everyone cares about
I wish I wouldn't be so lonely and dreaming of someone cuddling me every second
I wish life wasn't so bad
 
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Symbiote

Illuminated
Oct 12, 2020
3,099
Connection, if I had connection with humanity in some way other than online, then all the above you just stated would be fine.
 
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greebo6

Enlightened
Sep 11, 2020
1,671
Attractiveness .
 
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LONE WOLF.

LONE WOLF.

PUNISHER.
Nov 4, 2020
1,990
If l could be granted one wish it would be to belong somewhere or to someone and a job would be good too! A purpose in life would be super awesome as well!
 
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Odwin

Odwin

Bucket of Chicken
Mar 31, 2021
558
Mhh, I think I just don't know what I want.
I don't care about friends or family.
I don't need a ton of money.
I just want to be happy, but I don't know what makes me happy.
I wish I had like you said the one dragon to slay. Sometimes I wish life would be like a game with a goal to achieve.
 
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TessB

Warlock
Oct 13, 2020
743
I'm lacking three things that would change everything:
Mental wellness
Sobriety
Supportive understanding family.
 
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Bamman

Can’t go back, why go forward?
Mar 31, 2021
74
A time machine would be pretty useful, Help me HG Wells!
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
21,408
As much as I hate to admit it, the one thing I'm probably sorely lacking is self-love rather than romantic love as much as I complain about not having that. In my understanding though I'm aware I probably won't even consider self-love/respect/esteem until I get romantic love first even though people keep telling me it's the other way around but I just don't want to listen because I find it impossible for me to have true self confidence when I can't even forgive myself for minor infractions. As long as I can't reconcile with myself, then myself is probably going to keep ruining my life and sabotaging my romantic pursuits anyway. Unfortunately I feel constantly fractured between two selves. Both of them hate each other and themselves and I can never tell which one I am at the moment. I wish I could just give myself up completely to someone or something instead.

The only time I've felt harmony between my two warring selves was while I was in love and somebody loved me back which only lasted about five days but that's how I know that's the only way to help me. It felt like quantum physics was being bent to merge my two selves into one and for once I started to feel inner peace. Plus when she complimented me I had no urge to want to deny it. I accepted the good feelings about myself just because they came from someone I was attracted to. I probably would have picked up all the things I'm ignoring right now like getting a job, exercising, and even learning cooking for her but now that she's gone from my life I'm stranded in a boat of my own design but I can't tear it down without sinking myself which is what I plan to do anyway.


I see a pesistent tendency, not just here but generally in despondent people, to be able to pinpoint a single source for all the evils in their lives.

If only I had money, everything would have been fine.

If only I had romance, everything would have been fine.

If only I had wise parents, everything would have been fine.

If only I had something to do, everything would have been fine.

If only I had opportunities, everything would have been fine.

If only I had peace of mind, everything would have been fine.

If only I didn't have this addiction or disease, everything would have been fine.

Is this actually how it works? I was skeptical at first, but over time I do notice that if they someone gain the one thing they seem to be missing, they stop complaining. There's obviously truth to this. This amazing ability to identify The One Problem runs contrary to the general inadequacy of human self-analysis.

Why can't I do it, then? Where is my One Problem? Where is the dragon that I have to slay to put out this fire? I can't see it. Everything that I want and can name, I have. There's something that I need to have that cannot be named. I feel like a crayon stick figure trying to rise up from the paper and reach towards the sky. Whatever it is I want but don't have is in a dimension as inaccessible to me as the 3D world is to the stick figure. I can infer that it exists, but I can't begin to even imagine what it is, and I can never go there and experience it.
Forgive me for being meta but it sounds like your One Thing right now is simply not being able to determine your One Thing. Maybe you're just starved for a purpose with greater significance than whatever it is you do right now even though you already have everything you need to be comfortable. Perhaps you seek adventure or some other interesting break from the status quo. I suppose there are lots of ways to do that but maybe you wouldn't feel thrilled enough by just going to Mt. Everest and taking a selfie at the peak.

Maybe that sounds too cliche though. Perhaps what you seek truly is beyond your realistic scope to approach. In that case, maybe your one wish is to somehow transcend this current dimension and seek greater truths or at least unique sights. I could be overstepping though, this is just my theory. Hope it helps you get one step closer to figuring it out yourself.
 
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Lmd

Lmd

Elementalist
Jul 12, 2020
812
Isn't everyone supposed to guide their life based on one goal and when they achieve it, then move on to another one? It's really everything fine once you achieve what you want? I can blame my past or wish for tons of things (love, money, parents doing normal parenting) but I already wanted these things, achieve them and still having suicide thoughs.

I have ended up accepting everything that surrounds me with their flaws. What really kills me is being in this limbo of not being able to be completely comfortable with life and the will of wanting to die for no reason. So I guess the ONE thing I want i'ts just to be out here?? I don't know how.
 
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Bigpink

Warlock
Oct 12, 2020
706
My own home
 
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Mentalmick

Mentalmick

IMHOTEP!!!
Nov 30, 2020
2,049
A soul. If there's such a thing I don't think I have one.
 
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life-eternal

Student
Nov 11, 2020
119
I need around $2,000 so I can go buy finish paying my things off, get the SN and rent hotel and kill myself there.
 
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life-eternal

Student
Nov 11, 2020
119
it's a bit more than just paying off but i would need some travel expense as the SN is not in my city.

I hate being broke
 
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Canon1

Student
Dec 2, 2019
184
I wish I was 6 feet 3 tall and more pale.
 
Mentalmick

Mentalmick

IMHOTEP!!!
Nov 30, 2020
2,049
I wish I was 6 feet 3 tall and more pale.
Come and stay with me in Scotland and you'll be paler than Casper's albino twin brother within minutes.
 
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Canon1

Student
Dec 2, 2019
184
Haha well my skin is kinda Latino looking. Not white not brown either something between and it kind of disturbs me. But what disturbs me most is my height. 184cm. Why couldn't I grow to 190
 
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Saki

Experienced
Mar 22, 2021
201
I wish I had stable finances I am not rich, stable reletionships or reletionships in general would be great, self-esteem, purpose, goals. Just the standard things a human wishes for If I'm being honest. Maybe less abuse in my life would have been great, but oh well. it doesn't matter at this point.
 
Odwin

Odwin

Bucket of Chicken
Mar 31, 2021
558
Haha well my skin is kinda Latino looking. Not white not brown either something between and it kind of disturbs me. But what disturbs me most is my height. 184cm. Why couldn't I grow to 190
All men under 184cm >:_(
 
WornOutLife

WornOutLife

マット
Mar 22, 2020
7,183
A stable mind and mood.
 
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Canon1

Student
Dec 2, 2019
184
All men under 184cm >:_(
No, some are happy with their height even below 184 but I want to be seen as good looking and tall from women and that kind of annoys me. You can't do nothing against it what bothers me more.
 
suicidesheep31

suicidesheep31

Specialist
Jun 27, 2020
348
love myself, love someone and be loved
 
Odwin

Odwin

Bucket of Chicken
Mar 31, 2021
558
No, some are happy with their height even below 184 but I want to be seen as good looking and tall from women and that kind of annoys me. You can't do nothing against it what bothers me more.
Yeah, some win the genetic lottery some lose them hard
 
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Canon1

Student
Dec 2, 2019
184
I think i didn't lose it hard but 184 is like not short and not tall enough either. Something between and I also wished to have a 20cm penis instead of a 15cm one. On the other hand I have huge hands and huge feet (size 46 EU) but I think this doesn't count as a giant specific that is attractive.
 
HowNowBrownCow

HowNowBrownCow

Member
Dec 28, 2018
34
Money, and lots of it. That way I wouldn't have to work and could move to an isolated area and therefore not have to deal with people
 
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killedbypsychiatry

killedbypsychiatry

drugging kids is abuse
Jan 27, 2021
797
my healthy body back
 
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Bootleg Astolfo

Bootleg Astolfo

Glorious Bean Plushie
Oct 12, 2020
1,150
I don't have a girlfriend, friends, family, money, job, education, any help whatsover of any kind. Even my health is pretty much gone. Kinda just have plushies.
 
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loopylou

Learn to fly
Jan 11, 2021
884
If I had a normal mother, I would be fine. My trauma from childhood has and will define my life.
 
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