the depression, the mental illness and traumas demon will cost me my life

[SuicidalPlushie]

what else will i lose? what else? i lost myself i lost my laughs and smiles i lost my spirit and dreams and crying everyday in hoping to end this nightmare in hoping to free myself, when will this end? where is the light? i lost even interest in talking to my much loved and glorious parents too who gave me everything they had.. i just turned to ghost who is lost in this world.. going to nowhere, i cry and cry and cry and while i'm writing this im crying but but there no help coming im alone in this isolated and dark world.. i lost my battle against depression, BPD and social anxiety.. i will ctb in 2 days and i'm looking at the past and seeing a full storms pain and tragedy... when i'm gone and my body start to get cold who will warm me? how will my parents see me so silent and pale? will they see their beloved son lifeless and not talking and joking to them anymore? i'm just sorry.. so sorry for all the destruction i will cause.. i have no option.. i'm so so tired. i want peace.. i want go home

 

[FuneralCry]

Living really is so painful. I understand the feeling of being tired of everything. I know that it is hard to carry on living when you suffer so much. I hope that you find the peace you are looking for.

 

[SuicidalPlushie]

Living really is so painful. I understand the feeling of being tired of everything. I know that it is hard to carry on living when you suffer so much. I hope that you find the peace you are looking for.

thank you so much for your kind words no matter how much i write i will be always in pain, alone

 

[BluesRunTheGame]

Relatable.