Venting the biggest hospital in my city doesn't have the meds i need

[moya117]

i just come back from hospital, consulting on what i should say to psychiatrist when they doesn't change my meds, other than "maybe just accept that you have to take your meds even though it makes you gain weight, start loving yourself" or "consult to them that it makes you gain weight" which i already mention it to her that i already said that more than two times. she concludes that my hospital might not have the meds i need, meds that doesn't make me gain a lot of weight, which is sad when she mention that it is the biggest hospital in my city, and other hospital is not brave enough to make psychotropic or anti depression meds because they might get sued if the patient is using them to yk OD-ing, get high and stuff.
i dont have the money to go and consult a new psychiatrist nor for the meds, i don't know what to do... im thinking of committing but even then i don't have the money to buy resources, jumping to a river will likely result to failure