The beginning of the end.

[ideservepeace]

Waking, sleeping, crying, eating, lying in bed all day.
This is no way to live.

Please one day can my family forgive me.

Two bottles of N on the way. Please make it through :(

 

[Snake of Eden]

N will make its way to you rest assured :)

 

[Lone_Gray_Wolf]

Good luck on getting N, is not easy but time will tell you if it will work.

Good luck.

 

[Idontmatter]

I'm sorry you are going through this. I can relate and I'm hoping my family forgives me after I'm gone. It's sad that's the only solution we have.

 

[FuneralCry]

N is the best ctb method in my opinion. We all deserve a peaceful exit at a time of our own choosing. I wish you the best with your plans. Being alive is just so horrible, wanting to exit is understandable when you are constantly suffering. I hope you find peace.

 

[toforigivelife]

I understand the anguish you feel as far as how your death would affect those around you.

However, as someone once said of families who have a a family member who died by suicide, "Your love for them does not negate their suffering."

It's true. It's hard for families to comprehend but it is true.

People call suicide selfish. I'm sorry, but we the suicidal have been hanging on by a thin, anguished thread and have been keeping ourselves propped for a long time in order to avoid hurting others.

We're not selfish or uncaring. We live with pain that others could not imagine and we did our best for years. Many painful years.

I wish people could look at mental, emotional and psychological pain the same way that they look at physical pain and physical illness. Suicide would not be such a mystery to them if they were able to do that.

I wish I could be there to help you.

Wishing you blessings and peace, regardless of what decision you come to my friend.

 

[checkedout]

I'm sorry you're going through this. Looking at your username, I think you deserve peace too.

I hope you find peace soon.

 

[Sadness20]

It's hard to see people suffer this way. I wish everyone else a peaceful life or in this case a peaceful exit, but when I think about myself I'd wish I'd die painfully.

 

[Death is beautiful]

Did you get your N?

He last visited 12 days ago

 

[NormaJeane]

Nembutal should be injected otherwise there is a risk of vomiting even with antiemetics.