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TheHatedOne

TheHatedOne

Death is salvation
Sep 26, 2021
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I have this very strong impulse to take SN tomorrow even if I still don't have a digital scale, and on Tuesday I have an appointment. Could've done it today but I didn't fast and ate kinda a lot. I need to think more about it cause I also want to drink a lot of alcohol tonight. Can't take much suffering anymore tho.
 
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NothingElseMatters

NothingElseMatters

Warlock
Mar 30, 2020
745
you and me both
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I understand that it is hard to carry on when the suffering is unbearable. Living is very painful. Whatever you decide, I wish you the best.
 
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Crazy4u

Crazy4u

Enlightened
Sep 29, 2021
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I order measuring spoons and cups from a well-known market space online. You might want to consider that?
 
Of The Universe

Of The Universe

Specialist
Dec 31, 2021
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I understand that it is hard to carry on when the suffering is unbearable. Living is very painful. Whatever you decide, I wish you the best.
I'm just curious,why did you change your name??
 
TheHatedOne

TheHatedOne

Death is salvation
Sep 26, 2021
2,028
I order measuring spoons and cups from a well-known market space online. You might want to consider that?
I've already ordered a digital scale that is supposed to come on Thursday (however where I ordered it from things always come earlier than they're supposed so maybe it will be like this now too). But I'm really tempted to do it without even if it means chance of failure, I can't stand living even a single second. It's too much. I've just finished writing one of my last notes and reviewed my plan. Now I need to know if it's fucking ok to drink before fucking fasting.
 
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Crazy4u

Enlightened
Sep 29, 2021
1,318
I've already ordered a digital scale that is supposed to come on Thursday (however where I ordered it from things always come earlier than they're supposed so maybe it will be like this now too). But I'm really tempted to do it without even if it means chance of failure, I can't stand living even a single second. It's too much. I've just finished writing one of my last notes and reviewed my plan. Now I need to know if it's fucking ok to drink before fucking fasting.
I know how you feel. It is hard to keep going when you really don't want to. Remember there is no rush to ctb. If you have your own room/apartment, try to avoid anyone who annoy you.
 
TheHatedOne

TheHatedOne

Death is salvation
Sep 26, 2021
2,028
I know how you feel. It is hard to keep going when you really don't want to. Remember there is no rush to ctb. If you have your own room/apartment, try to avoid anyone who annoy you.
i know im a dumbass and could've waited few more days for the scale to come but i'm impatient and desperate as i've been my whole life,. i can turst spoon measuring too i guess it doesn't hurt. i'm living all alone although i had to visit my parents on tuesday so they might start to ''worry'' and pester me with messages and such, but I'll fake it and tell them i'll *come* on thursday so there;s no potential disturbance.
 

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