SHThrowAway213
That's the hell I live with
- Apr 19, 2018
- 659
It seems futile. I'm never going to get better, there is always going to be SOMETHING.
Alcohol is not as helpful as it has been in the past, I'm drinking pretty much every day.
I have some money saved up.
I've found someone that has a dealer. Only problem is he works nights.
I'm just tempted to just go missing, spend the last weeks fucked out of my head, and when that is done, go myself.
I would still have to pay my dog food bills until I died but that's fine. The problem with this is my parents and sister would be extremely worried and would cause as much fuss to find me.
I would have to go quite far away, I'm not even sure how it would work.
My brain fucking hurts.
Alcohol is not as helpful as it has been in the past, I'm drinking pretty much every day.
I have some money saved up.
I've found someone that has a dealer. Only problem is he works nights.
I'm just tempted to just go missing, spend the last weeks fucked out of my head, and when that is done, go myself.
I would still have to pay my dog food bills until I died but that's fine. The problem with this is my parents and sister would be extremely worried and would cause as much fuss to find me.
I would have to go quite far away, I'm not even sure how it would work.
My brain fucking hurts.
