Thank you, I mean it.. I'm gonna leave all the theatrics behind and vulnerably admit I went out today hoping once again to maybe cross a stare but, nevertheless, this did not happen. It's fine, I tried to go into a book store to ask for a book I'm interested in and while I did walk inside I hastly left - couldn't really bare it. So I appreciate your interest.. I'm home now and I've been thinking of customizing the profile, I'm normally opposed to the idea but in this grain of time I think it's possibly an effort and risk worth taking.