Survivivng ctb but still feeling dead

[StrawberryRed]

About 3.5 months ago I spontaneously tried to kms 3 times in about 2 weeks. Since then I feel like Ive completly lost all care for my life. Im not even close to being as depressed or suicidal as i was but I cant get myself to do anything anymore becasue i just dont give a shit lmao. When I attempted a major driver was all the things in my life I thought I was failling at. I was obsessive about perfecting my life. Now Im doing even worse and I just cant seem to care at all. The only things I do are out of ABSOLUTE necessity. Ive become so anhedonic, I feel like a robot version of myself. Like I really did die and I just dont know it yet. Did this happen to anybody else?

 

[ipmanwc0]

Sounds like a major burnout, also do u happen to have autism

 

[pk@2001]

What led you to this?

 

[StrawberryRed]

Sounds like a major burnout, also do u happen to have autism

haha i get that a lot . As far as I know I dont, Ive never been tested. my brother does though

What led you to this?

To trying to kms? I was insanely depressed and felt like it would never end. I had a minor stressor really set me off and went kinda crazy lmao.