Suicide Scale (now with poll)

[KLUF]

Spoiler: Suicide Scale

Source: https://emmengard.com/2019/05/07/suicide-scale/

I know threads like this have been created before but I haven't seen one with a poll.

 

[iDieUDie80]

These are all really specific, not sure if I really identify with any of them. I believe I need to end my life some point soon, and maybe I'm waiting for a trigger intense enough for me to follow through.

 

[Shinkansen]

I'm at level 8.

 

[whywere]

I am a level 9. tried suicide twice and maybe the thrid time is the charm. job loss, chronic pain, massive depression...ah the list goes on!

 

[esse_est_percipi]

I am a level 9. tried suicide twice and maybe the thrid time is the charm. job loss, chronic pain, massive depression...ah the list goes on!

What happened when you tried twice?

 

[TAW122]

Normally, I was around 6-7 for a while, but given how things have gone to shit this year and knowing that the future will be bleak or unlikely to be better (barring some miracle which I find a fat chance of it happening to be honest), I've bumped up to somewhere between 7-8, rather 7.5/10. It's very likely I will go this year, or if not, then sooner than much later (barring some mega miracle that suddenly turns things around and puts me from being actively suicidal to being passively - but I highly doubt that will be the case, seeing how things are playing out right now).

 

[Marktheghost]

9 and a half. I'm not making a plan, I've made a plan. I'm not trying to kill myself though because I haven't got my sodium nitrite yet.

I picked 10 because I want to die, and I'm past the planning stage etc.

 

[KleinerWolf]

Right now I'm a 6,
although I do fluctuate from 6-9 depending on how things go.

 

[fakenamehere]

I don't consider myself as ever having been "passively suicidal", doing things like driving recklessly or not moving out of way of cars as fast I should. I know that wouldn't be the right way to go about it so I've never tried. Self-harming (Emotionally or physically), maybe, but not looking both ways before crossing the street or driving recklessly, no. I suppose those things could be a form of self-harm or self-sabotage, but self-harm and endangering others with reckless driving are different. I've also never really been one to "fight" the thoughts. They're not just thoughts, being suicidal is more like a state of mind for me personally. I didn't like when people would ask "How often do you get suicidal thoughts and how easily can you push them away? Once a week, once a day, twice a day, you push them away easily, etcetera" because it's not really a thought, more like an underlying feeling that is there every second of the day but just varies in intensity depending on triggers and such. I don't see a point in distracting myself or fighting them as I don't see them as intrusive type thoughts that should be eliminated, they belong there or at least need a solution and not a distraction. I think I'm usually a 6-7 without the "Doing dangerous things" part but am an 8 now.

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

8.

"I NEED TO CALL SOMEONE", what kind of disgusting normie shit is that?

 

[wait-for-the-bus]

I am just waiting for the bus to arrive.

 

[wait-for-the-bus]

Or in simple terms - I think I am at an 8 going on 9

 

[avoid_slow_death]

Nowadays it's usually 8 or 9. Every waking moment is usually devoted to tearing myself apart mentally or telling people I care for goodbye indirectly. Some are getting truly worried.

 

[Orchid_Passed]

"It isn't safe for me to be alone. I am suicidal."

Stuff like this sounds so infantilizing to me.