Suicide is the stage when soul dies

[Elri]

How long can you carry on? You could deny the fact that someday you're gonna have to face it, you could isolate yourself for years , stop talking, stop eating , skip the mirror, drug your feelings and love, but are you experiencing anything? Are you willing to experience anything? oh sure you're just tired , next time for sure.
How long can you go like this?
With a dead soul with no desire to live/experience , with limited options of shitting and eating and sleeping?
Stop feeling sorry for yourself, every single of your decision till this day has brought you where you are today. Stop blaming people for not being here for you ,nobody cares. Just as much as you don't care. you could stay miserable or deny it and live a miserable life millions of other pathetic lives or you could use your anger against your instincts. Your body's against you cause it doesn't feel the pain, your body wants you suffer cause it never has to feel anything. you have to feel and carry it all.
You didn't asked for it , you didn't have any control on starting it but you a control on ending it, what do you want now?
-a reminder to myself

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

How long can you carry on? You could deny the fact that someday you're gonna have to face it, you could isolate yourself for years , stop talking, stop eating , skip the mirror, drug your feelings and love, but are you experiencing anything? Are you willing to experience anything? oh sure you're just tired , next time for sure.
How long can you go like this?
With a dead soul with no desire to live/experience , with limited options of shitting and eating and sleeping?
Stop feeling sorry for yourself, every single of your decision till this day has brought you where you are today. Stop blaming people for not being here for you ,nobody cares. Just as much as you don't care. you could stay miserable or deny it and live a miserable life millions of other pathetic lives or you could use your anger against your instincts. Your body's against you cause it doesn't feel the pain, your body wants you suffer cause it never has to feel anything. you have to feel and carry it all.
You didn't asked for it , you didn't have any control on starting it but you a control on ending it, what do you want now?
-a reminder to myself

You do the math and realize it's just getting worse. Time is not on your side.

 

[FuneralCry]

It is painful living an empty existence. I feel like I have already died but I am still breathing. Of course suicide is difficult as we are programmed to survive, human beings are cursed with a powerful survival instinct. However I know that many have succeeded in ctb, and I believe when the pain of living gets too much I will finally be able to leave.