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124afun15
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- Jul 8, 2025
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As someone who uses PED's I noticed my suicidal ideation was worst when I was very skinny and not using testosterone.
While on testosterone I had alot less suicidal ideation. When I got on tren it completely went away. Everything I did was right and I was the ultimate man. I had no reason for wishing to die because the world was mine to conquer.
When I get off tren I revert back and remain somewhat confident until I massively fuck something up.
Currently on 275 Test E and I really only get suicidal ideation when I fuck something up. For example I crashed my company truck not too long ago and while I was not in trouble at work I still felt like I had to commit suicide over it for some reason.
When I fuck up massively while on tren I just expect others to forgive me and not say anything. When I was on tren I broke a dynamometer at work (4-5k usd) and I really didn't care in the slightest. When my boss told me "it's okay we will get you another one" I felt like I was his boss and he was accommodating me.
This brings me to my main idea. Could suicide simply be a hormonal issue?
Also no idea how this could work for women since they cannot just blast tren without growing a clit the size of a thumb.
Possibly progesterone related.
While on testosterone I had alot less suicidal ideation. When I got on tren it completely went away. Everything I did was right and I was the ultimate man. I had no reason for wishing to die because the world was mine to conquer.
When I get off tren I revert back and remain somewhat confident until I massively fuck something up.
Currently on 275 Test E and I really only get suicidal ideation when I fuck something up. For example I crashed my company truck not too long ago and while I was not in trouble at work I still felt like I had to commit suicide over it for some reason.
When I fuck up massively while on tren I just expect others to forgive me and not say anything. When I was on tren I broke a dynamometer at work (4-5k usd) and I really didn't care in the slightest. When my boss told me "it's okay we will get you another one" I felt like I was his boss and he was accommodating me.
This brings me to my main idea. Could suicide simply be a hormonal issue?
Also no idea how this could work for women since they cannot just blast tren without growing a clit the size of a thumb.
Possibly progesterone related.
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