Struggling with choosing method

[nihilism44]

I am not planning to ctb for a little while.. I'd like to try to hold out a little bit longer before I make that decision. I have a small bit of hope left. I would like to have something on hand, though. I was really considering ordering SN.. but something about it just feels off to me. I'm afraid of suffering.. it seems that everyone thinks it is "peaceful" but death by lack of oxygen does not sound peaceful to me. I'm not afraid of pain as much as I am afraid of awareness that I am dying. I have a panic disorder and I know my SI would go into overdrive the minute I feel myself dying. I would rather not have a panic attack while I'm going out. Am I just overthinking it? Or maybe I should look more into ordering N?

 

[Jumping_realms]

It depends how severe your anxiety is toward that, IMO.

With SN, it seems to me, you will know you are dying for sure, but it won't hurt you. If you can't take knowing you're dying, it wouldn't probably be the best idea.

 

[Alwaysbadtime]

The anticipation before it puts you to sleep is the problem. I hear what you are saying. I think perhaps n is faster to fall asleep. Idk. All ways are shitty. Some faster ends than n or sn, but it's not a sure thing. The internet is great for talking you out of anything.

 

[Bullit]

Get N if you can.

 

[depressed21]

You also need to consider the reaction of your loved ones. I would not want my family to discover my body

 

[nihilism44]

You also need to consider the reaction of your loved ones. I would not want my family to discover my body

That is my main concern actually.. not even just them finding my body but the emotional aftermath for them in general. That's what's keeping me here currently. If I do end up doing it, I will make sure that I go out in a hotel room or just anywhere where my loved ones won't have to find me.

 

[coffee]

I would choose N but will most likely CBT with SN.

 

[Apricity]

I'd prefer N, but can't afford it. I've chosen N² and exit bag. I got almost everything I need online for about $300. Regulator, flow meter, barb fitting, tubing, and 29ft³ of food-grade N². Just need the bag, tape and elastic from Wally World or some other place for cheap.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

I'd prefer N, but can't afford it. I've chosen N² and exit bag. I got almost everything I need online for about $300. Regulator, flow meter, barb fitting, tubing, and 29ft³ of food-grade N². Just need the bag, tape and elastic from Wally World or some other place for cheap.

I'm impressed. Where did you get your N2 tank?

 

[ElderRecluse]

I got a 40 cu ft tank of Argon online from Weldfabulous. According to PPH it will work the same as N2. I could only find mail order N2 available in either tanks that were much larger, or too small.

 

[Crazy4u]

If you think SN is painful, your SI might be strong. Some people CTB by jumping, drowing, and fire.

 

[Ta555]

If you think SN is painful, your SI might be strong. Some people CTB by jumping, drowing, and fire.

Different type of pain I guess. The idea of having a horrible stomach ache or vomitting might be really off-putting for some people who don't care about breaking bones. Phobias and anxieties aren't rational. I've actually gone off SN after recent goodbye threads where people appear to be suffering a lot. That and it takes too long for my liking. Would consider it in combo with full suspension though.

 

[chainofcommand]

Firearms. The math doesn't lie. Let's be very generous and assume 80%…that doesn't even account for proper technique, caliber, type of round, discipline, etc.

 

[Ta555]

I know suffocation gets the thumbs down here but I've just ordered the strongest duct tape I could find and I already have handcuffs. I'm looking for lethality, not comfort.