stepping on toes

[evilnkaa]

It's been a couple days since I cut him off. I used to tell myself without him i'd ctb but now i'm here living on without him. I was filled with so many emotions. Mostly just anger because I spent months chasing someone that doesn't even want me. No matter how much money, love, and understanding I put out. it wasn't enough. Greedy people normally don't feel the need to change or even comprehend them being in somewhat or in the wrong in general. He wants more and more while I just want one thing and it's not being met. All i asked was for reassurance when I asked. And maybe that's too much but with the amount of crap I put up with and he can't fathom the idea of that is just a mindfuck. No matter how I spin it he didn't pick me ever. He didn't love me or even care about me. Having that gutting feeling just made me want to just punch him and scream at him but I just disappeared from his life. I realized no matter how many death threats I gave him and no matter what I did he would've still fucked me over. All that pain and effort down the drain and now i'm out of 6k and i'm just destroyed.

 

[timf]

They say that the best education in the world comes from the school of hard knocks, it is just that the tuition is so high.

That you were willing to give so much of yourself for so little in return is a testimony to a kind heart and noble spirit. You many now be able to add a critical eye to size people up earlier before you open your heart again.

 

[5karlet]

It's been a couple days since I cut him off. I used to tell myself without him i'd ctb but now i'm here living on without him. I was filled with so many emotions. Mostly just anger because I spent months chasing someone that doesn't even want me. No matter how much money, love, and understanding I put out. it wasn't enough. Greedy people normally don't feel the need to change or even comprehend them being in somewhat or in the wrong in general. He wants more and more while I just want one thing and it's not being met. All i asked was for reassurance when I asked. And maybe that's too much but with the amount of crap I put up with and he can't fathom the idea of that is just a mindfuck. No matter how I spin it he didn't pick me ever. He didn't love me or even care about me. Having that gutting feeling just made me want to just punch him and scream at him but I just disappeared from his life. I realized no matter how many death threats I gave him and no matter what I did he would've still fucked me over. All that pain and effort down the drain and now i'm out of 6k and i'm just destroyed.

you'll never know when you find the right one but i pray we all do eventually

 

[evilnkaa]

They say that the best education in the world comes from the school of hard knocks, it is just that the tuition is so high.

That you were willing to give so much of yourself for so little in return is a testimony to a kind heart and noble spirit. You many now be able to add a critical eye to size people up earlier before you open your heart again.

It gets so lonely giving so much. And I'm the type of person to just give all my love to everyone just to get dissatisfaction.

 

[CatLvr]

Been there, done that and bought the t-shirt as they say. I know EXACTLY how you feel and I am sorry. Sorry you have to go through this, sorry there are mean, cruel people in the world, sorry he never saw your worth.

But ... You are stronger than you think. It may take a while and you will shed some tears, and screams some screams but in the end you will be so much happier without him than you ever would have been with him.

I wish I could hug you and give you a moment's peace in all this. Just know we are all with you right now.