stay alive for others

[Totally_nothin]

is it right choice to end my life? i mean, if i kill myself a lot of people will be sad, and that is what together with the pain, discouraged me several times from it, but I don't think I can handle being on this blue planet more than 3 next months, I have such a dilemma: make people around me sad, but find my peace / stay on this world and be constantly depressed, with suicidal thoughts, while others are happy.

 

[WornOutLife]

Same dilemma here.
I guess time will give us the answer.
I think if I'm really desperate, some day I might ctb impulsively and there will be no turning back.

 

[Thiopentone31]

Can relate

 

[FuneralCry]

It is selfish for other people to expect you to stay alive when you are suffering so much. Yes, it's bound to make them sad and I have the same thoughts towards this. In my case I would write a note telling them I am in a better place now.

 

[BottomlessPit]

I used to struggle with this, and I still do sometimes. But I came to the conclusion that this is my life and I can do whatever I want with it. I don't want to base every action I take on what other people will think about it.

 

[HopelessFight]

I think this is something most people on this forum are struggling with :(

 

[Totally_nothin]

It is selfish for other people to expect you to stay alive when you are suffering so much. Yes, it's bound to make them sad and I have the same thoughts towards this. In my case I would write a note telling them I am in a better place now.

i started writing my last letter in form of story probably 1 month ago, and i am working on it every day , now its have 65K words and 192 pages, and i am going to write it until my heart will stop beating. i am not writing it for others, i am writing it for myself, because its keeping me happy... sometimes

 

[Moose.000]

Unfortunately, only you can answer that. People's sadness or your struggle. Which is heavier?

 

[Meretlein]

Staying alive for your loved ones is a noble thing to do but it is not obligatory.

 

[noname223]

Personally I warned everybody. I told my family and friends I have daily suicidal thoughts and I am thinking about taking my own life. At least I warned them. My parents abused me so I don't really care much. But my friends...they don't deserve it. We have already talked about this topic. Even quite often. And they seem to understand my situation and accept my decision when my time comes. I have my red lines. I warned them. I really cannot stand another period of severe psychosomatic pain. I don't think I have a choice. I think I am urged to do it. (by my unsolvable problems)

 

[Hurt]

Sometimes I hear a voice that tells me "Please, stay". But today's too much pain. I hate it. Honestly I'm just living to see days pass. I do not do any interesting activity and I'm done with all this.

 

[Emilia1012]

is it right choice to end my life? i mean, if i kill myself a lot of people will be sad, and that is what together with the pain, discouraged me several times from it, but I don't think I can handle being on this blue planet more than 3 next months, I have such a dilemma: make people around me sad, but find my peace / stay on this world and be constantly depressed, with suicidal thoughts, while others are happy.

I think you have a good heart :) despite your suffering you chose to live because care about other people

 

[Largeletters]

Every situation is different, but for me, I feel it is selfish of others to expect me to stick around and serve their needs.