Help Starvation for Self-punishment/SN Preparation

[homesoon.]

I've been emotionally eating for a few months now. I'm still small, I had the room to spare. But, it feels attached to a lack of control and it doesn't help the feelings of self-hate. For those that have done it for "self-punishment," how do you fight the urge to cave in and eat? Does it get easier over time? Plus, I know you need to fast for awhile before taking SN. If I do it, I want to make sure I don't screw that part up over a "snack."

 

[Lifeaffirmingchoice]

I mean if I struggled w fasting for SN I'd just take an appetite suppressant the day or two before.