Starting to get paranoia

[cardboard_house]

I never really realized how much I really relied on my cat to help alleviate my other mental health issues but now that she's gone they're coming back in full force and I'm so unprepared for them. I'm feeling a lot more anxious and paranoid just walking around the house, I feel like someone has broken in and is gonna kill me and to me that idea is very scary because that's so far from how I want to go, and it's too soon anyways. I'm also scared of the dark and usually it was made fine because she would be with me and I'd feel okay but that's not the case anymore.

I guess I just never really realized how much I rely on her to help me through my various problems, and now that she's gone, I don't have any coping mechanisms to deal with them. It's a very scary feeling, I don't even feel safe walking around in my own house. I hate it.

 

[The Burning Fool]

I'm sure you'll always remember her, seeing how precious she was. Don't forget to drink, eat and sleep. I'm here to listen.