Started the 48 Hour Regiment

[Viafactorum]

After considering my circumstances and arranging for all my responsibilities to be taken care of in the coming months I have started the 48 Hr Regiment mentioned in Stan's guide. 16 hours have already passed, I have taken the Metoclopramide and there are no observable changes in my functioning. I have already started my fast, I will be doing a 48 hour fast(maybe 24 hour fast because I might look suspect to my family if I go without eating for 48 Hrs). Life has been terrible so far, I feel like I will finally be at peace. The feeling is liberating and for the first time in a long time I feel genuinely happy.

If I stop posting to the forum for 1 month can one of the moderators or the admin please delete my account? It's mainly so that if the local law enforcement goes through my devices after my exit and find this forum then things will get more tedious. This is most probably the end, unless some grand miracle solves every problem in my life within 24 hours.

 

[picklemick]

Hope you find peace.

 

[The_Flying_Fox]

I'm glad that you're feeling calm and happy. I hope I will feel the same when it's my time.

 

[FuneralCry]

It really is such a horrible life and I can imagine that it must be a relief to finally feel happy. I hope that you find freedom from your suffering.

 

[Judy Garland]

I'm so sorry for the pain you are feeling. You are much braver than I. I'm a coward for I fear what is going to happen to me after I leave my body. I haven't lived a good life, but I tried my best with what I was given.

 

[Klophy]

I'm sorry for all the things you've been through. I'm glad that you've managed to obtain happiness.

 

[Lost in a Dream]

I'm glad you feel happy about your decision. I hope it works out well for you and you find the peace you're looking for.

 

[Viafactorum]

Thank you to all those that provided kind words. I might be postponing the date of my ctb due to some emergencies that came up at my occupation. Honestly everything was supposed to go smoothly but it seems like I will most likely have to deal with everything myself before taking the exit. I will likely need to move the date by a month. I'm devastated that I can't even leave this world without dealing with mindless tedium, regardless I'll have to resolve everything before kicking the bucket.