sorry for the english,holy shit, everything is going down so fast, i´ve been struggling to find a job for years, but everytime i think im close, they close the door on me because of my incompetence, i got a job at a bakery but i was so slow, that the owner fired me, he said it was because there was too many employes but i know he just said that to be nice because he is friend with my mother, after that i tried to work as an video editor to my friend but he hated my edits so he kicked me, i just got sick and lost an opportunity to talk to a friend that i havent spoken in a while, and now he is busy, and i really wanted to talk to him, but i got sick for an entire week, and after i've got "better" i still feel an fever, but my tempeture is okay, i dont know what this is, been feeling this awful fever for about 3 weeks now, i hate this feeling, i was afraid that if i drank something, would get sick again, got into a fight with my mom, stayed at my grandma house for a few days but everything still weird, got a gig tomorrow and avoided drinking all week for fear that i would get sick,but yestesday just got this sick feeling that i could not avoid, tried to get out with another friend to feel better, it helped, until today, so i said fuck it, and bought 2 beers, i am drinking right now, i really tried to avoid cause i wanted to be good for tomorrow but this fever just wont stop so i said fuck it, i think i will be sick tomorrow, if i lose this gig, i am not gonna hear the end of it, probably gonna catch the bus,dont know, just why, i dont know, i just feel so fucked by chance, i try my best, but cant just fit in normal life, maybe im not made to do this,by "this"i meant living, i dont wanna live as a cockroach, i wanna have my own life, but i feel like that is impossible due to the way i am, just feel like dying all day.
blackbeauty
I hope you won't completely forget me.
- Sep 24, 2024
- 55
I understand you 
It's really unfortunate you got sick at a time when you're trying really hard to secure a job !
Also, a fever for 3 weeks sounds really long, can you go to the doctors to get that checked out? I hope you get better soon but I'd recommend not drinking while you have a fever though. I know it helps with the emotional pain but likely to slow down your recovery time.
You are not a cockroach, just a human being that's trying their best to make the most of life with the cards they've been dealt. Hope you take it easy on yourself.
It's really unfortunate you got sick at a time when you're trying really hard to secure a job !
Also, a fever for 3 weeks sounds really long, can you go to the doctors to get that checked out? I hope you get better soon but I'd recommend not drinking while you have a fever though. I know it helps with the emotional pain but likely to slow down your recovery time.
You are not a cockroach, just a human being that's trying their best to make the most of life with the cards they've been dealt. Hope you take it easy on yourself.
NonEssential
Hanging in there
- Jan 15, 2025
- 486
As someone who has never managed to find employment, I feel like I'd ctb the moment I'd ever get fired lol.
man,after i got fired i spent all the money of my last salary on drinks, it really fucks you up
