Tbh my mental state is... I dunno, I feel sort of unstable. I dont have any issues like bipolar disorder, but I will laugh and mid laugh I get hit by crippling sadness. Does anyone else have this?
Or I will be out with the one person that is my friend and we will be chatting, watching a movie, etc then when I get home I get a crushing wave of suicidal ideation. Why? I was having fun a minute ago now I am absolutely ready and none of that matters, nothing matter but finally finally finally become nothingness return to the void.
I dunno, I seem to go through phases of good times then crushing weight of bad times. Its a new thing, my stress level has been steadily increasing over the past few weeks. Maybe thats it?
Or I will be out with the one person that is my friend and we will be chatting, watching a movie, etc then when I get home I get a crushing wave of suicidal ideation. Why? I was having fun a minute ago now I am absolutely ready and none of that matters, nothing matter but finally finally finally become nothingness return to the void.
I dunno, I seem to go through phases of good times then crushing weight of bad times. Its a new thing, my stress level has been steadily increasing over the past few weeks. Maybe thats it?
