The only reason I'm not CTBing is I don't want to hurt my gf. But I do really want to CTB. If she wanted to CTB, I'd want her to get help first like I've tried, but once a few avenues are exhausted I'd be delighted to CTB with her. I just don't want to be responsible for depriving her of possible good times, because deep down I know she doesn't really want to die.
If my dad wanted to die, it would be different because I rely on him for a start, but also I'm not hanging around for him, he can handle my death. I'm hanging around so I don't hurt my gf. So if he wanted to die I'd insist that I need him and that he get help. I'm selfish.