Venting Someone who's really interesting- Never spoke to them.

[rotthjärta]

People always catch my attention. There was someone who peaked my interest maybe I am a bit creepy but I'd like to look at them a lot. I don't think I had classes with him in the new school. They were very quiet and I never heard him speak. He was a grade above me. He went to both of my H.S actually and thats how I recognized him . He wasn't shy he just looked very emotionless all the time and would walk around looking straight ahead. Sometimes I would see him walk home as I drove back home. I don't even live in that city or go down there anymore.

I never talked to them they just peaked my interest, I remember when his grade graduated I looked for her name on the year book, I don't think he graduated on time ? Or perhaps he did well at some point I looked for him specifically on the year book so I can know his last name because I knew his first name since the last school. At least I think that was him but the personalities would've been very different.

I thought he had a very nice style he would wear I think i remember just baggy jeans and a T-shirt but they always looked nice, sometimes a sweater i believe. I think when he got his hair braided it looked nice because usually he would have it very curly and long to the point it covered his face so I never got a good look at his face until he got his hair braided. To me his style was kinda skater-ish or metal head really, to be honest more metal head sort of look. I think he likely was an inch shorter than me. He had darker skin.

I think he was friends with another very quiet guy. But during lunch I would just see him stand by the wall and look around a bit and he didn't do anything but that and then when the bell rang he would just go back to class. It wasn't a far away wall it was near some benches. I think he did the same at the last HS. But I was 14 so I don't remember. I fucking hated that school and everyone around eventually I wouldn't show up or go upstairs to the science halls and sit on the random chair there.

I still remember his full name, I kinda tried to look for him online but then I felt like a creep also I just couldn't find him. And now I feel sad because maybe I could've had a conversation with them and If I would've turned to dislike them that would be better than being such a people watcher. But I was very awkward and weird just ugly during school I didn't give a fuck of what I looked like and I hated talking to people unless they spoke to me first. Plus he mainly intimidated me haaa, truly I felt very very very much too shy to even look at him.

I like to think maybe he knows but thats just being deluded, he likely saw me as everyone else does just some weirdo on the side.

 

[Forveleth]

I have been out of high school (and college) for a few decades and I still think about some of my classmates. I wonder where they are or whatever happened to them.

I find little memories like this fascinating. Thank you for sharing.