Social anxiety is to much

[Suicideorgy]

I cant do it. I havent been able to get a job in years because I start freaking the fuck out and can't do it the interview. I dont even have a phone because thats a huge trigger for me. I cant get medication because I cant afford to see a doctor. I havent had a friend in 12 years. I am so useless, I have tried a lot, CBT, CBD, pot, breathing techniques and a whole bunch of other stuff I cant remember. I dont even have a drivers license because I cant afford for someone to teach me (and again no friends that will do it for free)

I dont know how fo fix this. If anyone has any suggestions I am listening. When I say my anxiety is bad I mean it. I dropped out of school because of it. It has ruined my life.

 

[Why Me?]

Are you in the US? If so you can apply for Medicaid, it's free insurance. , they even have a care giver program a relative may be able to sign you up for. It's a start. I understand your anxiety issues, anxiety has destroyed my life too. Do you have any relatives that can help you if you talk to them? You will definitely need a phone to survive, you have to make some sort of sacrifice until you can get help.

 

[Mashedout]

Most mental issues are related to pain avoidance. Incorrectly dealing with adversity. Adversity will never stop as long as we live. We shouldn't wish for it to get easier because that just won't happen. We should wish for us to become stronger in order to cope with it. That takes effort like anything else though. The same way you build the body slowly, you build the mind through your constant habits too. Avoidance will only keep you in a place of pain because the problem is unsolved still. We MUST lean into pain for any chance of conquering it.

Watch some of Wes Watson's videos.



He has some of the best summaries of how to deal with this life and thrive in it.

 

[FuneralCry]

That sounds so awful what you are going through. To me it's horrible how life can torture people in so many ways. I hope that you find relief.

 

[hamvil]

I cant do it. I havent been able to get a job in years because I start freaking the fuck out and can't do it the interview. I dont even have a phone because thats a huge trigger for me. I cant get medication because I cant afford to see a doctor. I havent had a friend in 12 years. I am so useless, I have tried a lot, CBT, CBD, pot, breathing techniques and a whole bunch of other stuff I cant remember. I dont even have a drivers license because I cant afford for someone to teach me (and again no friends that will do it for free)

I dont know how fo fix this. If anyone has any suggestions I am listening. When I say my anxiety is bad I mean it. I dropped out of school because of it. It has ruined my life.

I know what you feel. I will have an interview tomorrow I will let you know how it goes. I lost friends because of this and at 43 I am sure I will not make new ones. I am unable to talk with other women and anyway I have nothing to offer. I have no idea how to get out of this.

 

[Suicideorgy]

I know what you feel. I will have an interview tomorrow I will let you know how it goes. I lost friends because of this and at 43 I am sure I will not make new ones. I am unable to talk with other women and anyway I have nothing to offer. I have no idea how to get out of this.

How did the interview go? Im rooting for yah.

About medicaid, I signed up and it says processing, fingers crossed. I figure if my anxiety and life has gotten to the point where I am on this website I might aswell try some medication because everything else isnt working. I obviously need something a bit more potent than hopes and prayers.

 

[hamvil]

How did the interview go? Im rooting for yah.

About medicaid, I signed up and it says processing, fingers crossed. I figure if my anxiety and life has gotten to the point where I am on this website I might aswell try some medication because everything else isnt working. I obviously need something a bit more potent than hopes and prayers.

Thank you so much for remembering it and asking about it. I prepared a bit for an hour before the interview, trying to calm down. I dedicated some time to properly fix hair and shave and I did dress up. It was all via zoom. Not sure if this is better or worse. At least it avoids the waiting in lobbies and having to interact with assistants.

I prepared a bullet list with my skills and I went calmly over it during the first phase of the interview. I think I did fine in that part. Then they started asking some questions. I think for some of them I jumped a bit from one topic to another so maybe that was not good, but I did not panic and I tried to control my voice for the entire interview.

Overall I think I did ok. However at the end they did not ask me if I have questions for them. Usually they do this in interviews as far as I know. I am not sure if I should interpret this as a sign that they were not interested.

I did some treatment for anxiety, mostly xanax and benzo. I do not remeber anymore the dosage of xanax, but it was strong and I felt like a piece of furniture after. Unable to perform even the smallest task. Benzo are better but milder.

Let's hope for the best. The job per se sucks, but it would allow me to at least live in place I like in the mountains.