Braindead Atheist
Specialist
- Oct 7, 2020
- 387
i am really struggling right now. I'm stuck working in child care because I'm not smart enough to do anything else. I like some of the kids, but they're so needy! they fight like every two seconds and refuse to follow directions and then they need help with everything. and they're so loud! Huff*** just some moments peace would be good. I'm also tired all the time because I have pcos and thyoid system dysfunction and NONE of the meds are working! I go to design school part time and i am too tired to do the assignments or try to understand them. I can't even get out of bed until at least 1:00 or 2 without a nap and i can't control my weight. I try to have hope for the future but I just don't see anything working out for me giving that I can't even do a super easy fulfilment job at target, so why would I be able to do something like graphic design?! i feel so crappy about everything...i don't even want to take a chance, i just want it to be over. i don't even care anymore...
none of my dreams are going to come true and i'm tired of suffering. i don't know how i'm going to kill myself just yet. i was thinking co poisening but i don't know how since i live with my family still. i just want it to be quick, painless and easy.
none of my dreams are going to come true and i'm tired of suffering. i don't know how i'm going to kill myself just yet. i was thinking co poisening but i don't know how since i live with my family still. i just want it to be quick, painless and easy.
