So it begins again

[Flying Away]

Into preparation stage once more. Been told on here that life is over. Those who could've saved me chose not to. Those I thought might care don't. I guess I always knew it would once again come to this. In the past two weeks I have let hope derail me more than once. I now feel I can ignore hope once and for all. Next few days will be taken up with trying to feel enough to clean and then depart. I was born on a Thursday so it seems a good day to die. No one can save me now.

 

[FuneralCry]

I think that people can often be very unreliable and disappointing. I'm sorry that you were let down by others. I hope that in whatever happens, you find relief from your suffering.

 

[Flying Away]

I think that people can often be very unreliable and disappointing. I'm sorry that you were let down by others. I hope that in whatever happens, you find relief from your suffering.

No I let other people down.

 

[Well-Edited Chaos]

I hope that in whatever happens, you find relief from your suffering.

I second that emotion, whole-heartedly.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Well, it's not exactly true that no one can save you. You can save you. That's always how it is. Relying on anyone else for anything never works out. I'm not telling, or even suggesting, what you should do. That decision is yours and yours alone. But, in my life experience, the only one I could ever really count on was myself. Not saying I can save myself, either, because I don't think that's going to happen. But, I'm sure, that if some miracle was going to happen, it would involve you saving yourself. Whatever happens, I hope you find the peace you deserve, as we all do.

 

[Flying Away]

Well, it's not exactly true that no one can save you. You can save you. That's always how it is. Relying on anyone else for anything never works out. I'm not telling, or even suggesting, what you should do. That decision is yours and yours alone. But, in my life experience, the only one I could ever really count on was myself. Not saying I can save myself, either, because I don't think that's going to happen. But, I'm sure, that if some miracle was going to happen, it would involve you saving yourself. Whatever happens, I hope you find the peace you deserve, as we all do.

Thank you but at 58 I realise I can't save myself. I need help from one person.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Thank you but at 58 I realise I can't save myself. I need help from one person.

You may be a little lucky in that you may have someone who could save you. I'm 56 and have no one left who could save me, except me, and that isn't in the cards anymore.