DeathIsTheWayOut99
Warlock
- Jun 6, 2020
- 798
I am pissed off at myself, at life, and every abuse I have been through and is still going through
People always make it seem like I am "strong" when they don't know I could realistically jump off a bridge if I wanted to
As I was in the subway station waiting for my train, I was trying desperately not to jump into the tracks
It would be messy, but I dont care because at the end of the day nobody cared about me. I learned from a young age I was created as a punching bag, not a being to be loved
I dont know why my school teachers made me cry, and why my mom made it her goal to make me miserable
I dont know what I did in some previous life ot deserve this pain I wish I knew
All I want through my death, beyond peace, is for hopefully people to get me and my suffering
While I might experience peace, I doubt anyone would understand me
I don't know when I'd CTB, but if I am ever ready to officially die I would post it here
If I can get just one person to understand me, then I'll know I did my job
People always make it seem like I am "strong" when they don't know I could realistically jump off a bridge if I wanted to
As I was in the subway station waiting for my train, I was trying desperately not to jump into the tracks
It would be messy, but I dont care because at the end of the day nobody cared about me. I learned from a young age I was created as a punching bag, not a being to be loved
I dont know why my school teachers made me cry, and why my mom made it her goal to make me miserable
I dont know what I did in some previous life ot deserve this pain I wish I knew
All I want through my death, beyond peace, is for hopefully people to get me and my suffering
While I might experience peace, I doubt anyone would understand me
I don't know when I'd CTB, but if I am ever ready to officially die I would post it here
If I can get just one person to understand me, then I'll know I did my job
