So I got high and am feeling all sociable

[Oblivion Access]

Only to realise I have nobody but like 1 person left I talk to because I haven't been outside for months, have lost touch with or had fights with most people and am not meeting new people because I hope to die sooner than later. Oh well. I guess becoming isolated means my passing will leave less of a void in people's lives, given nobody is really dependent on me for companionship? Solitude does also mean not worrying about people's lives and effectively living under a rock which I do appreciate in many ways. At least the high is nice. If I had money and good access to opiates I might consider staying alive and riding till the wheels fall off. If it's between addiction and lying in bed while feeling like a worthless piece of shit and counting hours until I can sleep, I'll take addiction any time.

 

[braindead911]

Got stuck in oblivion yeah yeah

 

[GentleJerk]

Man. I can definitely relate to having barely anyone left to talk to because everybody has dropped off, and friendships keep getting harder to maintain the older we get. I feel like shit all the time so I'm not going out and meeting new people either, and even if I was, I doubt much good would come from it. Shit has changed so much. Also, I did that all through my teenage years and 20's, and no lasting good came from it.

If I'm feeling social it's usually at a time when no ones around x) then I'll probably get a visit when I want to be left the fuck alone.

 

[onlyanimalsaregood]

I'm the same. At this moment I'm not in the mood to meet new people and that's ok. We shouldn't pressure ourselves. I'm just concentrating on myself at the moment.