Hello I'm a new member to this community and I must say I know I would be in a very bad place probably a vegetable or something else if I didn't find this forum. Just a lil about myself and why I'm here and what I been thru.
So about 2yrs ago I found out that I was HIV positive. And I have been going to a herbalist to try to reverse it. I've had to completely switch my diet and go vegan and just stop doing the things I was use to doing. After finding this out I was so devastated that I isolated myself from mostly all of my friends or ppl that I hang with or speak to. I have move back in with my mother bcuz I tried to ctb around this time last year. by turning my car on in the garage and leaving the door open to my town home and falling asleep. Yes I was so uneducated as to what I was doing. Luckily I was living alone so no one even knew that I had tried this. Fast forward to now and I'm just so outta it emotionally and financially. I'm scared to go out and meet friends bcuz me being vegan I have lost so much weight and don't want anyone to start asking questions. So I basically went from someone who would be out with friends everyday to someone who sits in my mother's house everyday and that alone is killing me slowly. I feel like I'm trapped in this nightmare and can't wake up. I have completely lost my self and my joy for being on this earth so about 2weeks ago I decided that I was gonna try to ctb again but this time I was determined. Me still being so uneducated I brought rat poison that was the way I was thinking to ctb and than finally I used what was left of my brain and got online and started researching. As I was researching the effects of the rat poison I somehow came across a link to this community and it might have been 1 of my best blessings in a long time. I browsed the site for a while and got to read about all the different methods and read story's of other members. So one method caught my attention and that was the charcoal in the vehicle method. I've read about ppl succeeding and failing so I took it up myself to try a test it out for myself and I was really surprised by my results. So I went out and got an expert portable charcoal grill, a chimney starter, royal oak all natural briquettes and the kiddie CO meter. So the meter only reads up to "999" but I thought I will use it anyway just to see what happens. So I placed 20 briquettes in the chimney starter with newspaper around the bottom and lite it. I waited until all smoke was gone and charcoal was grey and glowing. Took about 15-20 min. I dumped the charcoal from the chimney starter into the portable grill and put in my truck which happens to be a 2018 Chevy Silverado. I didn't tape anything as this was just a test to see what everything stood. I put the CO meter in the front seat and the portable grill in the back seat. It took about 3-4 min for the meter to reach "999" so than I opened the door and took the meter out and let it go back down to zero and put it back in the truck and to my surprise this time it tick about 30secs to reach "999". So I'm thinking that if it jump up that fast it will for sure reach deadly levels and remember that was with only 20 briquettes. So once I'm ready I think I'm gonna go with that method and add more briquettes just to be safe but in my opinion this way will definitely work.
So about 2yrs ago I found out that I was HIV positive. And I have been going to a herbalist to try to reverse it. I've had to completely switch my diet and go vegan and just stop doing the things I was use to doing. After finding this out I was so devastated that I isolated myself from mostly all of my friends or ppl that I hang with or speak to. I have move back in with my mother bcuz I tried to ctb around this time last year. by turning my car on in the garage and leaving the door open to my town home and falling asleep. Yes I was so uneducated as to what I was doing. Luckily I was living alone so no one even knew that I had tried this. Fast forward to now and I'm just so outta it emotionally and financially. I'm scared to go out and meet friends bcuz me being vegan I have lost so much weight and don't want anyone to start asking questions. So I basically went from someone who would be out with friends everyday to someone who sits in my mother's house everyday and that alone is killing me slowly. I feel like I'm trapped in this nightmare and can't wake up. I have completely lost my self and my joy for being on this earth so about 2weeks ago I decided that I was gonna try to ctb again but this time I was determined. Me still being so uneducated I brought rat poison that was the way I was thinking to ctb and than finally I used what was left of my brain and got online and started researching. As I was researching the effects of the rat poison I somehow came across a link to this community and it might have been 1 of my best blessings in a long time. I browsed the site for a while and got to read about all the different methods and read story's of other members. So one method caught my attention and that was the charcoal in the vehicle method. I've read about ppl succeeding and failing so I took it up myself to try a test it out for myself and I was really surprised by my results. So I went out and got an expert portable charcoal grill, a chimney starter, royal oak all natural briquettes and the kiddie CO meter. So the meter only reads up to "999" but I thought I will use it anyway just to see what happens. So I placed 20 briquettes in the chimney starter with newspaper around the bottom and lite it. I waited until all smoke was gone and charcoal was grey and glowing. Took about 15-20 min. I dumped the charcoal from the chimney starter into the portable grill and put in my truck which happens to be a 2018 Chevy Silverado. I didn't tape anything as this was just a test to see what everything stood. I put the CO meter in the front seat and the portable grill in the back seat. It took about 3-4 min for the meter to reach "999" so than I opened the door and took the meter out and let it go back down to zero and put it back in the truck and to my surprise this time it tick about 30secs to reach "999". So I'm thinking that if it jump up that fast it will for sure reach deadly levels and remember that was with only 20 briquettes. So once I'm ready I think I'm gonna go with that method and add more briquettes just to be safe but in my opinion this way will definitely work.
