Venting so drained

[yaa]

So tired.. don't know why I exist.. feel so trapped in my skin.. I wanna cry rn but I can't. No one cares, people are slaves and beings get abused and harmed because they exist. I wanna leave.. I hate this planet I can't believe it was possible from sex to create us.. now we're in a prison planet ran by our own kind that oppresses us. I'm scared and I just want to die. I have no hope but I'm still here. Makes me self blame and feel pathetic.. feels like I'm squished between two walls.. "oh u don't like it here get it over with so u can stop complaining and distracting yourself everyday" help

 

[FuneralCry]

I really understand feeling so tired of it all, I understand it's so dreadful feeling trapped in this existence, I also just wish to be free from this horrific world where there is all this endless cruelty and suffering.

 

[yaa]

I really understand feeling so tired of it all, I understand it's so dreadful feeling trapped in this existence, I also just wish to be free from this horrific world where there is all this endless cruelty and suffering.

I'm sending you huggles wuggles honey bun wish I could give you a hug, this place is a nightmare

 

[Electra]

I'm really sorry you feel this way. The feeling of being trapped with no way to go, the anxiety of it all... It's dreadful.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I relate to you so much. I'm also trapped in existence (due to overly protective parents not letting me do things on my own) and I don't have any way for me to escape this existence. I'm trapped in this hellish world and I'm scared because this means that my suffering will continue to exist. I'm so scared of life and I want to escape this prison

 

[yaa]

I'm really sorry you feel this way. The feeling of being trapped with no way to go, the anxiety of it all... It's dreadful.

I'm sorry you are as well I hope we escape this place and never return fam

I relate to you so much. I'm also trapped in existence (due to overly protective parents not letting me do things on my own) and I don't have any way for me to escape this existence. I'm trapped in this hellish world and I'm scared because this means that my suffering will continue to exist. I'm so scared of life and I want to escape this prison

I wish I could give you a million hugs and forehead kisses I don't know if you live with your parents, have you tried the low income housing or snap stuff, most definitely take advantage of the system and get those benefits , trying to get on disability honestly it's how I escaped my parents

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I wish I could give you a million hugs and forehead kisses I don't know if you live with your parents, have you tried the low income housing or snap stuff, most definitely take advantage of the system and get those benefits , trying to get on disability honestly it's how I escaped my parents

I do live with my parents. I don't know what you mean by the "low income housing" and the "snap stuff". I never heard of those things before. Also, I am on a disability benefit but my mum uses all of that money on herself and the rest of the family, I don't get that money directly. What's so ironic is that I'm literally on a disability benefit yet when I try and talk to her about how much my autism impacts me, she says stuff like "don't act like you have autism because it's just a label and nothing else" and "everybody is on the autistic spectrum so autism isn't an excuse" and stuff like that. I'm just so sick and tired of it all. It isn't even that I want to be independent because independence is just so much hard work. All I wish for is to kill myself and escape this planet, nothing else. I don't see how I can do anything in a situation like this

 

[Electra]

I'm sorry you are as well I hope we escape this place and never return fam

I hope for that too. Or at least a little bit of piece of mind. Either way, if you ever wanna chat, or just need someone to listen - you can write me

 

[yaa]

I do live with my parents. I don't know what you mean by the "low income housing" and the "snap stuff". I never heard of those things before. Also, I am on a disability benefit but my mum uses all of that money on herself and the rest of the family, I don't get that money directly. What's so ironic is that I'm literally on a disability benefit yet when I try and talk to her about how much my autism impacts me, she says stuff like "don't act like you have autism because it's just a label and nothing else" and "everybody is on the autistic spectrum so autism isn't an excuse" and stuff like that. I'm just so sick and tired of it all. It isn't even that I want to be independent because independence is just so much hard work. All I wish for is to kill myself and escape this planet, nothing else. I don't see how I can do anything in a situation like this

Oh when I said low income housing I mean like section 8 and when I said snap I meant food stamps, is there anyway for your mother to be reported because she is absolutely abusive that's insane and what she said doesn't even make any fucking sense? Everyone has autism wtf ? I wanna save you from here honey bun I have discord if you'd like to talk
The only way people like us keep a sane ish mind in a shitty world like this is by pushing away all the NPCs and assholes and being around more like minded individuals that understand what you do. I wish there were more of us that understood how awful this place is. You don't deserve to be being treated unfairly and she should be punished for hurting you

I hope for that too. Or at least a little bit of piece of mind. Either way, if you ever wanna chat, or just need someone to listen - you can write me

Likewise I'd love to chat with you or just listen to you express how u feel, not sure if DMS work here but if not do you have discord by any chance luv?

 

[Electra]

Likewise I'd love to chat with you or just listen to you express how u feel, not sure if DMS work here but if not do you have discord by any chance luv?

Yeah, you can send private messages on here, but I think the post count has to be higher to unlock that. I tried messaging you but for some reason it wasn't allowed. I have a discord but don't wanna write it here publicly.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

Oh when I said low income housing I mean like section 8 and when I said snap I meant food stamps, is there anyway for your mother to be reported because she is absolutely abusive that's insane and what she said doesn't even make any fucking sense? Everyone has autism wtf ? I wanna save you from here honey bun I have discord if you'd like to talk
The only way people like us keep a sane ish mind in a shitty world like this is by pushing away all the NPCs and assholes and being around more like minded individuals that understand what you do. I wish there were more of us that understood how awful this place is. You don't deserve to be being treated unfairly and she should be punished for hurting you

Oh, those are US specific things only. I live in the UK so those things don't apply to me. Also, yeah, what she said doesn't even make sense and what's weird is that she just repeated that from my therapist saying the same fucking thing to her. I genuinely have no idea how somebody who has studied intensely at university for a few years has bullshit notions like this. In my case, the only way I can have a sane mind is if I were to have access to a suicide method that I know will definitely work. At this point I don't even care if the method is painful just as long as it's guaranteed and I wouldn't have a chance to be resuscitated. Being on this site and venting about my frustrations does help me a bit but, ultimately, at the end of the day, the only thing that can make me be at ease is having a way out of here

 

[yaa]

Oh, those are US specific things only. I live in the UK so those things don't apply to me. Also, yeah, what she said doesn't even make sense and what's weird is that she just repeated that from my therapist saying the same fucking thing to her. I genuinely have no idea how somebody who has studied intensely at university for a few years has bullshit notions like this. In my case, the only way I can have a sane mind is if I were to have access to a suicide method that I know will definitely work. At this point I don't even care if the method is painful just as long as it's guaranteed and I wouldn't have a chance to be resuscitated. Being on this site and venting about my frustrations does help me a bit but, ultimately, at the end of the day, the only thing that can make me be at ease is having a way out of here

Oh shit ur in the UK.. damn smh.. I don't know if you've heard of any easy methods yet though Ik you said u don't mind as long as you leave there's something I think called nitrite co3 I thought it's supposed to make you fall asleep peacefully I'd look into it for a simple easy exit if need be