SN This Time

[worthlessdisaster]

So after failing with the NN method, and trying every other outlet to get help, hoping anyone would listen (not just here me) i think I'm finally ready to CTB. I think I'll be planning with SN. Was looking online and you'll never guess what two things are frequently bought together. at the bottom when you click it shows what two are frequently bought together. Made me chuckle. I needed that. But after 39 years of pretending I'm finally ready. Taking my son to a car show on the 12th he's almost 22, and I have everything in order and I'll order my stuff and it will hopefully all fall into place. I've tried so hard and lately I just sit crying in my car wondering why the universe didn't make anyone for me. I have nobody. 8 billion plus people and while in walking around or driving or making TikTok videos hoping I won't feel so alone... ..I feel invisible. It's a horrible gut wrenching feeling and I really have tried. But it's time to just get everything in order. Everyone here is amazing. I will say goodbye as does everyone else before their journey once I'm ready soon hopefully. I'm so grateful I have you all atleast to see this. Makes me feel not so alone

 

[FuneralCry]

I do not think that you are supposed to post the name of a SN source. I'm sorry that you suffer so unbearably, I know that for many loneliness can be very painful. I understand that it is hard to carry on when everything seems hopeless. This life really is so cruel and unfair. I wish you relief from pain in whatever happens.

 

[befree]

"you'll never guess what two things are frequently bought together"....Tagamet.

 

[worthlessdisaster]

I do not think that you are supposed to post the name of a SN source. I'm sorry that you suffer so unbearably, I know that for many loneliness can be very painful. I understand that it is hard to carry on when everything seems hopeless. This life really is so cruel and unfair. I wish you relief from pain in whatever happens.

I reworded it thank you