SN comes in tomorrow.

[Heythere45]

I've been lurking on here for a couple weeks now and decided to register. My SN comes in tomorrow and I couldnt be happier. The past week I have shot air into veins. Tried to drown myself and my SI has been too strong. Im so far into debt. I have fucked up every opportunity in my life and I am just ready to put it all away. I know a lot of you dont know me but I feel very much apart of this community. Im ready to hop on the bus.

Im balling my eyes out because I couldve had it all. My ex is talking to me and she has no idea whats about to happen. She made me promise her I wouldnt ut her out of my life. I said I wouldnt but I know its a lie. I dont know why I continuously mess things up but Im done doing it. Im so ready for the next journey. Im so tired but cant sleep. Havent slept in 2 days due to my anxiety. ( and on a 2 day drinking bender )

Just going Ibuprofen and SN. And anyone who says it wont work I have seen plenty of threads on here contradicting that.



( hope this post isn't against the rules. )

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand it is hard to carry on when everything is hopeless. Life really is so depressing. I'm sorry you are suffering. I hope you find the peace you are looking for.

 

[Heythere45]

Thanks @FuneralCry . I hope CTB is like how it is from midnight to 6am. quiet . lol.

 

[Heythere45]

Well. Today is the day. Weirdly calming to say the least. I've been just eating saltine crackers, honey and water. Stopped eating at noon. Water only here and there. I was going through a box of personal things. Pictures etc. Re-living the past but also letting it go at the same time. I got to the bottom of the box and guess what I find. Prednisone. I see that is helps with breathing and sodium retention. Do you guys think it would be smart to add that in? Or Should I just stick with my ibuprofen and SN?

Anyways, I'll keep you guys posted when I do take my first 25g in 50ML of water around 8pm.

 

[Eol21]

I've been lurking on here for a couple weeks now and decided to register. My SN comes in tomorrow and I couldnt be happier. The past week I have shot air into veins. Tried to drown myself and my SI has been too strong. Im so far into debt. I have fucked up every opportunity in my life and I am just ready to put it all away. I know a lot of you dont know me but I feel very much apart of this community. Im ready to hop on the bus.

Im balling my eyes out because I couldve had it all. My ex is talking to me and she has no idea whats about to happen. She made me promise her I wouldnt ut her out of my life. I said I wouldnt but I know its a lie. I dont know why I continuously mess things up but Im done doing it. Im so ready for the next journey. Im so tired but cant sleep. Havent slept in 2 days due to my anxiety. ( and on a 2 day drinking bender )

Just going Ibuprofen and SN. And anyone who says it wont work I have seen plenty of threads on here contradicting that.



( hope this post isn't against the rules. )

Just sayin... There's no shame in bankruptcy, and getting on government programs if that's been on your mind.

On the other side of things... What can you tell me about SN without an antiemetic? Some don't have access to those but I haven't seen much info about it.

 

[Heythere45]

That's just a small piece of the pie.

I don't have access to it either, I have been reading really deeply about SN on here. This is one of the most informational threads.

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/thre...-on-the-forum-as-a-cause-of-sn-failure.47986/

 

[Eol21]

That's just a small piece of the pie.

I don't have access to it either, I have been reading really deeply about SN on here. This is one of the most informational threads.

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/thre...-on-the-forum-as-a-cause-of-sn-failure.47986/

I really appreciate the link... Bookmarked... thanks!

 

[Heythere45]

Yeah that really helped me out reading through it. The main thing is not getting found or calling yourself in. I won't have a problem with either.

 

[sadpinky]

Are you still with us?
I wish you safe travels.

 

[Heythere45]

Yup, just took my anti acid. 30 min left. Will stay posted for the first 10 minutes after drinking.

 

[sadpinky]

If nobody's said it to you today. I love you, I'll see you soon

 

[Heythere45]

Starting to rain and thunder. Pretty nice.
Thanks pinky, Love ya too buddy.
Down the hatch. Not terrible but not a good taste. Just like saltwater.

 

[sadpinky]

How are you feeling? Relax. The worst is over

 

[Lifeless mindset]

Good luck :)

 

[LifeQuitter2018]

RIP.

 

[3691215]

Are you gone?? If so rip and will always love you

 

[aminend]

R.i.p, if u did ctb

 

[ChaseBees]

Sending you love

 

[Deleted member 10090]

wait did it not work? It says you were active a few days ago

 

[3691215]

wait did it not work? It says you were active a few days ago

Don't believe everything you read on the internet

 

[Deleted member 10090]

Don't believe everything you read on the internet

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