I wouldn't advise it ** personally.
Currently in liver and kidney failure (by choice) from long term acetaminophen abuse in my own attempt to "slowly poison myself" for a more natural exit...(we're probably thinking different types of 'poison' but the slow impact of killing yourself through health decline is basically the same) the toll it takes on your body and your mind to drag out the process can become overwhelming throughout the duration and may take longer than you originally anticipated or have end stage side effects you don't see coming that would/could cause you to back out having gone through it all for nothing or being made to suffer far longer than you intended or hoped, or leaving you physically damaged in ways that you can no longer finish your ctb process so you become a living walking invalid
Dude I honestly wish you the best and hope you're not in too much pain. I can't imagine how hard all of this is while in the US.
I have a few questions, you don't have to answer if you don't want to:
1. What do you mean by long term abuse? Do you mean taking too much acetaminophen but not enough to be hospitalised?
2. Did/does anyone notice what you were doing?
2. How long have you been in liver/kidney failure?
3. What's your prognosis?
4. And do you get any treatment?
I overdose to self harm on acetaminophen or other medication not really to kill myself but like remind me how slow, painful and sucky death is and just to make myself suffer. These are overdoses of around 40 to 70 pills. I know it's kind of odd but I always go to the hospital in the end, after seeing how long I can handle it. I know this will probably end up with liver damage but I've done it so many times and my liver is still fine sadly. I don't care if this kills me but I'd be lying if I said I wasn't scared of liver failure.