Sleeping is the escape

[Cashewmilk]

These days I especially love sleeping, alot, whenever I can. I don't care about showers or brushing my teeth or hair etc, just eat, sleep, chores and drug use. I'm so thankful for sleeping and being able to fall asleep. I use sleep aids like eye mask and white noise ear buds. I also put menthol balms on my eyelids and eyebones and my back/neck if it's sore, it's so extremely relaxing. I'm addicted to it. I've always loved sleeping since I was a little kid. That should tell you how much I hate life lol. I also found a new blanket I'm using just a bed sheet instead of a real blanket, sooo nice and cooling. Ahh, maybe that's why I got addicted to heroin it's definitely a sleepy drug. Stimulants are not my thing but I've done a lot of them before.

But for some reason these days I'm so looking forward to sleeping. My days are calm and mostly functional, I hate being asked to do things for people like chores though because it hurts my muscles and body. Sleeping is the closest thing to death, even though my dreams are crazy and I have an overactive painful bladder, I still cherish sleeping. I am definitely depressed, but not in a sad or crying way. I'm more just really really tired and not interested, I just want to go to my forever sleep.

 

[a.n.kirillov]

Reading this I'm sort of glad that I can't fall asleep during the day anymore ... haven't had a nap in five years, even though I've tried.

 

[Cashewmilk]

Reading this I'm sort of glad that I can't fall asleep during the day anymore ... haven't had a nap in five years, even though I've tried.

I'm the total opposite. I have a really hard time being awake and productive during the day, always been like that. I've always been a night owl it's definitely my true nature because it's been like that since I was old enough to be allowed to at age 12 lol. I remember when I was 6 or 7 I had to rub my eyes violently just so I could keep them shut and sleep at night and wake up for school in the morning, a horrible religious school, lol yeah I had a bad start to life. Anyway, I have to sleep in intervals now because of my bladder.