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Sitting on methods

Retched

Retched

I see the chaos in your eyes.
Oct 8, 2018
837
Why can't I just pick one and go? Why is ctb so hard? I'm in so much mental pain. I can't keep living like this.
 
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Johnnythefox

Johnnythefox

Que sera sera
Nov 11, 2018
3,129
Yes, it does seem like we're spoilt for choice at times.
 
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MsM3talGamer

Voluntary deletion
Nov 28, 2018
1,506
It's not easy overcoming this damned survival instinct. It loves to keep us here to make us suffer more. Hugs if you want them.
 
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Retched

Retched

I see the chaos in your eyes.
Oct 8, 2018
837
I keep thinking today is my last day. It keeps not happening.
 
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Retched

Retched

I see the chaos in your eyes.
Oct 8, 2018
837
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Retched

Retched

I see the chaos in your eyes.
Oct 8, 2018
837
I have means. I just need to go.
 
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TiredHorse

Enlightened
Nov 1, 2018
1,819
I'm really sorry, Retched. It's unbelievable, isn't it? I have the ctb smorgasbord here at my house, several reliable methods, and SI hasn't let me do it. And now I've blundered into a place where I just know it isn't the right time. It isn't like I hurt any less, I just know it isn't what I should do. Damnably frustrating.
 
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Retched

Retched

I see the chaos in your eyes.
Oct 8, 2018
837
TiredHorse said:
I'm really sorry, Retched. It's unbelievable, isn't it? I have the ctb smorgasbord here at my house, several reliable methods, and SI hasn't let me do it. And now I've blundered into a place where I just know it isn't the right time. It isn't like I hurt any less, I just know it isn't what I should do. Damnably frustrating.
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I can't keep going on. You know I have a buffet going on too. I need to slaughter my SI, stick a fork in me, I'm done.
 
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Hopeless_soul

Hopeless_soul

Soon
Jan 3, 2019
502
I completely relate to that. I need to do it soon. I can't keep living this charade. I've reached rock bottom... Days go by, and I'm still here crying and feeling like a complete piece of garbage. Sometimes, I still force myself to enjoy something for 5 minutes, but that only helps for the avalanche of sadness to keep growing bigger. The anger and disgust I feel for myself are unbearable.

I'm sorry you are in so muh pain, Retched.X
 
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leaps

leaps

FUNERAL
Jan 16, 2019
251
You're speaking right to me.
 
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Retched

Retched

I see the chaos in your eyes.
Oct 8, 2018
837
Hopeless_soul said:
I completely relate to that. I need to do it soon. I can't keep living this charade. I've reached rock bottom... Days go by, and I'm still here crying and feeling like a complete piece of garbage. Sometimes, I still force myself to enjoy something for 5 minutes, but that only helps for the avalanche of sadness to keep growing bigger. The anger and disgust I feel for myself are unbearable.

I'm sorry you are in so muh pain, Retched.X
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Are we the same person?
 
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21Neberg

21Neberg

Enlightened
Dec 17, 2018
1,624
Luckily we've all got this forum. This forum is truly a blessing.
 
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Kdawg2018

Kdawg2018

Still here...
Nov 10, 2018
272
I been sitting on methods for months, I'm with Tiredhorse on this one
 
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