Sick and nervous

[1000YellowDaffodils]

Okay I just registered a P.O. box to order SN for the second time. I have to go to the post office in the next 30 days to open it so I can get the keys and number and then I can order again. I'll probably go on the 11th, but I just feel so fucking sick. I haven't gone anywhere of my own volition since November and I'm so anxious all the time. I can't believe I was so fucking stupid to let the first one slip right out of my hands, but of course I was and now I have to do it the hard way. I just want to cry. Why did they stop me. Why did they take it. Please let this all be over soon.

 

[houseofleaves]

I just want to cry. Why did they stop me. Why did they take it. Please let this all be over soon.

i wish you peace in whatever happens

 

[its-about-time]

Are you the one in a group home and staff took your first order? I'm having mine sent to a PO Box too it scares me that it'll be confiscated or something but maybe it's even there now I haven't gone to check since ordering, I should go check tomorrow, I'm kinda scared to check like what if they're waiting to confront me, it's all legal though so I should relax.

 

[1000YellowDaffodils]

Are you the one in a group home and staff took your first order? I'm having mine sent to a PO Box too it scares me that it'll be confiscated or something but maybe it's even there now I haven't gone to check since ordering, I should go check tomorrow, I'm kinda scared to check like what if they're waiting to confront me, it's all legal though so I should relax.

I don't think so? My mom called the police on me and I was pink slipped into a psychiatric unit, she took it while I was gone. I don't think it'll be confiscated since it was able to come through the mail the first time? I think we're good there, I'm just nervous about talking to people and paperwork confuses and stresses me out. Please keep me updated I'm interested in how it goes for you.

 

[its-about-time]

I don't think so? My mom called the police on me and I was pink slipped into a psychiatric unit, she took it while I was gone. I don't think it'll be confiscated since it was able to come through the mail the first time? I think we're good there, I'm just nervous about talking to people and paperwork confuses and stresses me out. Please keep me updated I'm interested in how it goes for you.

Oh ok sorry there's another user I'm confusing you with, yeah it'll probably be fine, I'll try to stop by tomorrow to check my box and see, it's a small PO box so I'll have to get the package at the counter that's what scares me, but I'm sure it's fine, I'll try to let you know.

 

[1000YellowDaffodils]

Oh ok sorry there's another user I'm confusing you with, yeah it'll probably be fine, I'll try to stop by tomorrow to check my box and see, it's a small PO box so I'll have to get the package at the counter that's what scares me, but I'm sure it's fine, I'll try to let you know.

No worries. Same, cheapest (smallest) option was $52 for three months, which I guess isn't bad but the amount of money I've put into killing myself lol. Thanks, hope it goes well.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that you are suffering. I can imagine that it must be so awful having to deal with so much anxiety. I know that this life can be unbearable when you are desperate to leave. I wish you the best in whatever happens.

 

[1000YellowDaffodils]

I'm sorry that you are suffering. I can imagine that it must be so awful having to deal with so much anxiety. I know that this life can be unbearable when you are desperate to leave. I wish you the best in whatever happens.

Thank you <3

 

[Foresight]

I wish you strength and comfort on that day you go out. I know it can be hard when you've been inside for a few months.

If you feel that need cry I think you should. Cry a whole day away and sleep like crazy. You deserve a release and a ton of rest.

 

[1000YellowDaffodils]

I wish you strength and comfort on that day you go out. I know it can be hard when you've been inside for a few months.

If you feel that need cry I think you should. Cry a whole day away and sleep like crazy. You deserve a release and a ton of rest.

Thanks so much, I'll be thinking of your words. I probably will I just hope I don't cry in the moment y'know lol, it's been a lot harder to control my emotions and filter what I say for a while now, hence public posts into the ether aha

 

[sealbabies]

Hoping I can get SN at my apartment complex but probably will have to pick up too. Also I heard that the vendor I ordered from might try to call me, sooo yeah, not looking forward to that.

 

[TheWood]

Everyone should have a way out. Forcing a person against his/her will, I think is the most inhuman and anti-democratic thing there is. I hope you'll soon take the reins of your life back in hand. Then in case you want ctb, I wish you to find the peace you deserve

 

[Astralyra333]

Okay I just registered a P.O. box to order SN for the second time. I have to go to the post office in the next 30 days to open it so I can get the keys and number and then I can order again. I'll probably go on the 11th, but I just feel so fucking sick. I haven't gone anywhere of my own volition since November and I'm so anxious all the time. I can't believe I was so fucking stupid to let the first one slip right out of my hands, but of course I was and now I have to do it the hard way. I just want to cry. Why did they stop me. Why did they take it. Please let this all be over soon.

Im sorry youve been feeling this way. I have been too. If you need a. Friend.Let me know. We can text and talk! Anyways wish u peace

 

[1000YellowDaffodils]

Everyone should have a way out. Forcing a person against his/her will, I think is the most inhuman and anti-democratic thing there is. I hope you'll soon take the reins of your life back in hand. Then in case you want ctb, I wish you to find the peace you deserve

I agree, it's the taking of bodily autonomy away. Absolutely crushing feeling.

Im sorry youve been feeling this way. I have been too. If you need a. Friend.Let me know. We can text and talk! Anyways wish u peace

Thank you, I'll remember that, and same here <3

 

[proxy]

I like the 11th and probably choose this date as well. I hope you find peace.

 

[1000YellowDaffodils]

I like the 11th and probably choose this date as well. I hope you find peace.

Thank you, I hope you do as well no matter what. <3