Help Should I wait "3" more years?

[Life_and_Death]

So technically being 21 I'd say 4 years but my bday is coming up in June so at this point I think its safe to say 3.

I've been reading into some of the more side effect inducing drugs (I guess you'd say) and while its nice that I'm getting a lot of the same hits for different things I'm looking into I'm noticing a lot of them are saying "In some cases, children, teenagers and young adults under 25 may have an increase in suicidal thoughts or behavior when taking antidepressants, especially in the first few weeks after starting or when the dose is changed"

And being sensitive to meds (already having this side effect with rispridone) I don't wonder if maybe I'd be better off waiting until I'm 25. Of course that brings the problem of 3 years of torture id have to live with. But I feel I'd be more likely to find one that helps if this was a side effect I didn't have to be as concerned with.

("suicide is the easy way" yeah well when everything you try to do to recover has you running into a cinder block fucking wall at 100km/hr with no padding between you and the wall, you're gonna want to stop hitting your head off the fucking wall. It hurts and always feels like a dead end.)

 

[Bat 17]

Waiting until you are 25 before starting antidepressants? Do you have a psychiatrist ?

 

[Life_and_Death]

Waiting until you are 25 before starting antidepressants? Do you have a psychiatrist ?

basically and yes i do

 

[Bat 17]

I presume you are thinking about antidepressant therapy to help you with depressive symptoms that make you want to CTB? If so, it sounds tough to suffer for such a long period for a side effect which is very uncommon, especially if you have a psychiatrist to help you manage

3/4 years is a long time !

 

[Life_and_Death]

antidepressant therapy to help you with depressive symptoms that make you want to CTB?

basically yes

especially if you have a psychiatrist to help you manage

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/serotonin-syndrome.65108/

in this thread i name off the current problem im working on.

if i change my mind and wait 3 years until the meds shouldnt bother me as much then the above plan changes.

the medication named in that thread is thought out with the idea that i stop the problem. if the above plan changes then ill focus more on therapy to be able to handle it and more minor medications to ease the symptoms instead of get rid of.

i basically go from taking action trying to fix things, to sitting and waiting it out until i might have a better chance.
im 21 almost 22. 3-4yrs of suffering isnt that long in comparison to having the rest of my life to be happy. (assuming i die naturally in a lot of years even though theres a million things that could happen between now and then to make that not happen)

 

[Bat 17]

OK I've read the other thread, thanks. 5mg citalopram is a small dose so should be ok if you are sensitive to medication.

 

[Rustysoupcan]

I'd encourage you to give meds a try, and if it goes badly then you can always go off of them

 

[Life_and_Death]

I've decided to wait until I'm more likely to find one. For now I'll pay more attention to therapy.

 

[killedbypsychiatry]

have you considered trying any alternative treatments if you can't use antidepressants at the moment? to help you cope

 

[Life_and_Death]

have you considered trying any alternative treatments if you can't use antidepressants at the moment? to help you cope

Weed (which can and typically makes things worse but sometimes can help) and I am loving this shroom coffee (but that's a bit expensive) so for the most part I just do corrections (which doesn't sound like the healthest thing but once you get passed that its helpful). Other then that I still have my therapist and I am taking buspirone (that I plan on upping the dose in a couple of days) and seeing what other research I come across I guess.

 

[Bat 17]

What's shroom coffee ?

 

[Life_and_Death]

What's shroom coffee ?

coffee made out of specific mushrooms (it doesnt make you trip)
shroom coffee

 

[Bat 17]

coffee made out of specific mushrooms (it doesnt make you trip)
shroom coffee

Ok! I thought you must be living in Amsterdam or something !

 

[Life_and_Death]

Ok! I thought you must be living in Amsterdam or something !

nah, canada. although i can get shrooms and stuff online the same place i can get some nice BC bud so almost lol