Settling on choices

[Busridin'26]

As in starting to really think about things..

Big question that remains is method.

I would like to go as painless and quick as possible.

I don't want to die impulsively but I honestly cannot hold on much longer.

Its hard to plan even my death and Im just wandering around empty. I can't stand this.

Life is relentless. Im exhausted so, trying to plan this "right" feels just as hard as living.

Starting to feel desperate. Not a mental place I wanna plan from.

I can't keep up this "life". I can't keep putting off planning as a "way to live"....

Everything feels impossible.... I know if I don't get decisive soon I will attempt impulsively. These days are horrible.


Have to move first so my focus is definitely struggling right now. Don't feel like I can plan properly for anything.

If i break there is nothing. Useless psych ward shit.

Nothing us keeping me her aside from fear of failure and lack of planning.

 

[WornOutLife]

Yes, choosing the method is the hardest part.
I highly suggest you read thoroughly the resources section.

In my case, it will be SN.

 

[Busridin'26]

Yes, choosing the method is the hardest part.
I highly suggest you read thoroughly the resources section.

In my case, it will be SN.

I've looked over it many times over the last year. I just always find myself feeling how I do about life/recovery.

That there's so many options with so many different outcomes and i dunno what's best...

Failung at life is something I can at least keep on the inside. Failing at death.. not really...


Everything feels impossible :/