Setting a condition for CTB?

[disappearingx]

I have been frustrated and tired, having originally planned to CTB this past February but for some reason holding onto some hope that things could get better if I throw myself into my work. I instead how feel the worst I've ever been between severe burnout and on the risk of failing academically. I've given myself an ultimatum and have tried everything to turn myself around but the outlook is more and more bleak.

I have made the decision that if I do not succeed, then I can go forward with what I meant to do a long time ago and finally grant myself some relief. I was just wondering if this is an okay way to go about things, I haven't had a foolproof way of deciding this but I simply can't put it off any longer, I've waited long enough

 

[FuneralCry]

We all have the right to exit this world at a time of our own choosing, it is your life and your decision after all. I know that it can be hard to carry on when you are so tired, and I understand that this life can be unbearable when everything is hopeless. I wish you the best in whatever you decide to do, I hope you find relief from suffering.

 

[Huntfish34]

I've done this with myself numerous times throughout the years so I definitely relate. It might not be with ... some others but I think it's perfectly okay to go about it in this way. I hope everything works out,. In whatever decision you make.

 

[WorthlessTrash]

I technically did. A few years ago I said if my ex (whom i still had/have feelings for) got married and there was no longer a chance of getting back together, i may as well (even though me not being with her isnt causing my depression). Well, she's married so guess I have no reason not to lol

 

[SuicidallyCurious]

Just wait until you succeed at the work and realize it's all pointless anyway

 

[houseofleaves]

Just wait until you succeed at the work and realize it's all pointless anyway

Why. Just why. This person could be on the road to recovery and you say this. Like why.

 

[SuicidallyCurious]

Why. Just why. This person could be on the road to recovery and you say this. Like why.

Always important to have a reality based view of the situation.

 

[houseofleaves]

Always important to have a reality based view of the situation.

I understand your point of view (i, like, really do), but sometimes it's better to keep the truth to oneself seriously

 

[Achlys]

I've set a condition for myself, as well. I can hardly fathom lasting long enough to meet it. It requires me to remain among the living for two to three more years, after all.