Seeing my roommate get engaged is making uneasy

[Parnate]

I am a gay man, 31 years old . I stay in a shared accommodation with five other people. There is a roommate of mine, he is two and half years younger than me. I don't like him that much. He told us today that he is getting engaged in the next week. And this news has struck me. I am feeling very uneasy and I don't really know what I am feeling . I don't want to get married yet I am feeling very uncomfortable cause of all this, I am having a feeling of missing out, watching people go ahead in life and yet I am stuck here. I feel everything in my life has gone wrong, me being gay, my mental health, my escapism and avoidance, etc. I need a fresh start , a new different life. You guys felt this way ? I am not understanding how i am feeling.

 

[Sprite_Geist]

I feel similarly.

I have said multiple times that I am not too interested in romantic relationships; though lately I have had feelings that I usually do have relating to this. I recently saw photos of an old friend hugging their partner, and I am really happy for them both, but it also filled me with sorrow... it is difficult to describe. I want something that I have told myself and others that I do not want.

 

[Parnate]

I feel similarly.

I have said multiple times that I am not too interested in romantic relationships; though lately I have had feelings that I usually do have relating to this. I recently saw photos of an old friend hugging their partner, and I am really happy for them both, but it also filled me with sorrow... it is difficult to describe. I want something that I have told myself and others that I do not want.

We are in similar suffering I guess. You mind telling about your situation?