sciatic214899
metastatic layabout!!!
- May 19, 2026
- 1
15-July-2026 // entry 1
hi. i think i am an empty person. because of this emptiness, i attempted suicide a few weeks ago. i want to try being less empty.
i will write about my attempted recovery here, if that is okay with you.
today i sent a reply to a volunteer organization. i did not check my email otherwise. that is not good.
i felt well enough to chop vegetables for spaghetti. it was alright.
I took my meds, washed the dishes, brushed my teeth, showered, drank a bit of water. this is good.
i found my old tweezers and spent four hours picking my hair. that is probably not good. i am unsure
a friend called. i cried, and i laughed, and i cried.
my current obsession is a 300+ hour long playthrough of a video game. when I finish watching i will give myself permission to begin a new obsession
i have noticed myself browsing imageboards from my teenage years. it may be a form of self harm. i hope imageboards will not be the next weeks long obsession, as i want to do things that enrich my life.
i see a new therapist tomorrow; there are emails. i dislike emails. i hope i become brave enough to check them soon.
i am grateful to my friends and family for their support, and i hope tomorrow will be better. thank you for reading. have a good day
hi. i think i am an empty person. because of this emptiness, i attempted suicide a few weeks ago. i want to try being less empty.
i will write about my attempted recovery here, if that is okay with you.
today i sent a reply to a volunteer organization. i did not check my email otherwise. that is not good.
i felt well enough to chop vegetables for spaghetti. it was alright.
I took my meds, washed the dishes, brushed my teeth, showered, drank a bit of water. this is good.
i found my old tweezers and spent four hours picking my hair. that is probably not good. i am unsure
a friend called. i cried, and i laughed, and i cried.
my current obsession is a 300+ hour long playthrough of a video game. when I finish watching i will give myself permission to begin a new obsession
i have noticed myself browsing imageboards from my teenage years. it may be a form of self harm. i hope imageboards will not be the next weeks long obsession, as i want to do things that enrich my life.
i see a new therapist tomorrow; there are emails. i dislike emails. i hope i become brave enough to check them soon.
i am grateful to my friends and family for their support, and i hope tomorrow will be better. thank you for reading. have a good day
