Help Scared of guns?

[deadprincess]

i have access to firearms, but i'm scared that won't be a peaceful way to go. sounds terrifying to me and loud. i'm debating on if i should just go for this way or get the heroin / painkillers i keep thinking about. anyone else scared of guns? just me? i just don't want to die like that, but i'm desperate so i always think about it.

i made these 2 lists for myself:

pros of guns:
- usually effective
- fast
- easy access for me

cons of guns:
- loud
- not peaceful
- huge mess

pros of painkillers/heroin:
- less mess
- quiet
- more peaceful (if it works out hopefully i'll just die in my sleep)

cons:
- have to figure out how to buy bitcoins (help? i'm thinking i could try coinbase.)
- will have to wait a little

 

[Deleted_9cKnXB34QG]

I would never shoot myself in the head. There's just something so unsettling about it... when I imagine my skull and brain blown into pieces. Or a big bleeding hole in my head. NOPE.
If that was my only method, I'd aim for the heart, but the head is a no-go.

 

[Sad Again]

look up exit masks or partial hanging

 

[atwasoa]

Guns being loud doesnt mean anything when you lost your conscous in half second.

 

[deadprincess]

I would never shoot myself in the head. There's just something so unsettling about it... when I imagine my skull and brain blown into pieces. Or a big bleeding hole in my head. NOPE.
If that was my only method, I'd aim for the heart, but the head is a no-go.

seriously the thought makes me slightly sick. i feel like my brain is fucking with me because it doesn't want to die lol.

 

[deadprincess]

Guns being loud doesnt mean anything when you lost your conscous in half second.

i don't want anyone to hear me kill myself. finding me is bad enough, but i just feel like hearing it can be avoided. remember this is just my personal list and these are my personal reasons that matter a lot to me.

 

[deadprincess]

look up exit masks or partial hanging

thanks, i'll start looking now

 

[Jaguar]

Gun has to be in the mouth

 

[IWishYouAllGoodLuck]

Gun or riot.