Venting Running out of will to live

[Chiisai]

It seems that Im running out of strength to maintain my will to live. Months ago, I made a personal promise that I will do my best with my business and investments so I can leave my family without worries of money. However, as the months went by, I have been patiently waiting for the market to atleast stabilise but to no avail. This wait has made me stay for long and lately, I find it hard to bear staying anymore but the thought of leaving my family in debt prevents me from CTBing. I pray the market stabilizes so I can leave ASAP.

 

[FuneralCry]

I have never wanted to live. Life is just tiring and it is something that I wish I never had to experience. I know that it is hard to carry on when you cannot take anymore of this life. Whatever happens, I wish you the best.

 

[Death is beautiful]

I hope that the market will stabilize in the near future. Good luck to you

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

Write a hit piece about the forum, should earn you some cash.

 

[Kristicide]

I'm sorry. It's so hard to say what the markets will do from day to day. It's like gambling. Even though there's a potential for war atm which can initially hurt the markets - it could swing in the positive direction if it'll benefit the war machine companies (Lockheed Martin, Raytheon, Boeing, Northrop Grumman etc etc). I understand though that urge to just get it over with - each day is painful enough to get through. Wish you all the best.

 

[Chiisai]

Write a hit piece about the forum, should earn you some cash.

Oh how I wish.

I'm sorry. It's so hard to say what the markets will do from day to day. It's like gambling. Even though there's a potential for war atm which can initially hurt the markets - it could swing in the positive direction if it'll benefit the war machine companies (Lockheed Martin, Raytheon, Boeing, Northrop Grumman etc etc). I understand though that urge to just get it over with - each day is painful enough to get through. Wish you all the best.

Yes. I regret it. I was too caught up in my emotions months ago that I forgot to resume business when markey was good. Right now, im just trying to hold on. I feel like a ticking bomb lately and could just explode any moment.

 

[DontGiveAshiit]

ye the market is absolute garbage right now....
anyway, I thought about doing something like throwing all my money on some speculative investment with huge risk/reward before I go all the way with CTBing. if it fails - then ok who care, Im not gonna need it anyway. and if it succeed - I will make shit ton of money which will be cool. might even make me want to stay just a bit longer....

 

[Chiisai]

ye the market is absolute garbage right now....
anyway, I thought about doing something like throwing all my money on some speculative investment with huge risk/reward before I go all the way with CTBing. if it fails - then ok who care, Im not gonna need it anyway. and if it succeed - I will make shit ton of money which will be cool. might even make me want to stay just a bit longer....

Yes. That was my initial thought to spend money for myself until it dawned on me Id be leaving my family.

 

[Chiisai]

at least you have the profile picture