Right now I'm convinced this year won't be any better

[Pcgamer1]

Right now I'm pretty convinced this year won't be any better than last year. Last year was a disaster just like 2020. Socially my and my closest friend grew further apart because she and I had differing covid views. I wanted to try different things to find new friends post vaccine and she was against me doing much in person social activities. And I haven't had much luck finding new friends no matter what I tried. And I don't do well with online social gatherings. So suicide is the best solution still, I'm still scared to do it

 

[FuneralCry]

I know it can be a dreadful feeling knowing you have a hopeless future ahead. I'm sorry that things are so bad. I know that ctb is the best thing for me, but I am held back by the fear of failure. More than anything I wish it was easier to exit. Whatever happens, I wish you the best.

 

[gottago222]

im on the same boat op. i have no faith things will change i can see this going on until 2030 and then something worse happening. the division amongst friends and family members is extremely common in these times, and its driving me up the walls aswell. your worries are valid