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Caribbean Sky

Caribbean Sky

Arcanist
Apr 15, 2024
451
Tell me about the kind of relief you hope to gain in death and why it gives you peace

how it is good enough for ctb

i am curious
 
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intr0verse

intr0verse

Specialist
Jan 29, 2021
350
There is no relief in death; the relief is here in this life when i think that i'm going to die one day but i don't know how long this coping mechanism wil last. When it won't anymore, it will be the time for some action.
 
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peewee

Student
Oct 16, 2025
132
just an end to the experience of suffering...I hope as a by product the people who pushed me to it will learn they cant treat people like that. for some reason people dont take your suffering seriously unless you actually die. even if they know your suicidal...you'll only be taken seriously if you really die. the person who drove me to this knows the state im in because of what they did to me, yet ignores me....I hope I will be reincarnated as a bird
 
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Pale_Rider

Pale_Rider

Enlightened
Apr 21, 2025
1,181
That's probably the reason I'm still here. Not probably. It is.
 
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rustcohle4life

rustcohle4life

I'm bad at parties
Mar 16, 2025
312
i don't know what to expect, i just know with relative certainty that it will be the end of this shitty experience. It's a gamble at the end of the day.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
13,500
I'm hoping there will be a feeling of blissful calm release just before death and, not just be pain and fear up to the last few seconds.

In terms of a feeling though. The closest maybe I've come is the day after resigning from a very stressful job I'd done for over 3 years. I was simply walking along the pavement and I suddenly felt human again. It's a cliche but- the sensation of having a huge weight lifted was real. I wanted to do something childish like skip along because, I felt so free. Of course- it didn't last. I was looking for a new job pretty much straight away. But- I'm imagining the feeling might be similar. To know I have no more problems on the horizon to deal with.

Of course, it's unlikely to happen because one of the biggest problems will be looming- how to kill my body successfully. I have a feeling that's going to taint any sense of calm joy I might otherwise feel.
 
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martyrdom

martyrdom

inanimate object
Nov 3, 2025
74
My body will be permanently destroyed and unrecognizable, I won't have to exist anymore, and that's all I want.
 
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death or death

death or death

Member
Nov 5, 2025
40
Tell me about the kind of relief you hope to gain in death and why it gives you peace

how it is good enough for ctb

i am curious
Everyone dies, living is just to die slowly and 'naturally'. CTB provides relief for me knowing I won't have to await that long process, or live a life where I have nothing to live for.
 
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Jan1193

Jan1193

I want no limitations for my soul
Sep 18, 2023
82
I won't have to keep living alone, completely alone. Or have to work, or have to deal with this house who makes me feel like I'm drowning every day.
 
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starboy2k

starboy2k

the only thing I can do right….is be a burden
May 21, 2025
362
ill feel relief knowing I died on my terms, instead of staying alive and dealing with setback after setback.
 
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Nightfoot

Arcanist
Aug 7, 2025
448
I think death will provide a relief from suffering that we can imagine but won't experience as death is the end.
 
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thebayleaf

thebayleaf

22f, looking for someone to ctb with
Nov 6, 2025
31
i just want to be free from everything. suffering is a constant of life and never thinking or feeling anything ever again is 100% worth it because i won't be getting raped or abused or mistreated or humiliated or hurt ever again.

only thing i stress about is a 'view from halfway down' situation where I jump off a building or kick a chair out from under me and spend the last 5 seconds of my existence scared and regretting it. survival instinct is a bitch.
 
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Eudaimonic

Eudaimonic

I want to fade away.
Aug 11, 2023
933
I hope to not exist anymore, or at least not in a state of any sort of suffering or one where suffering can potentially rearise. I hope to not need relief anymore. Ultimately, though, I'm gripped by existential uncertainty. That's the primary reason I am hesitant to CTB. If I'm honest with myself, I don't actually know with any degree of certainty that it will lead to the permanent end of suffering. Death is just something that my mind gravitates towards because, well, this whole life thing just isn't for me, and apart from death, what's the alternative, right? But I can't rationally know if I prefer it, seeing as I don't know what it actually is (or indeed if there is anything that it is) on an experiential level (beyond death of the brain/body, I mean).
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
45,759
For me non-existence is just the only peace and relief and is all I hope for, it's all I see as positive in this existence so torturous and dreadful that I always saw as a mistake, for me non-existence is just the only relief as after all only in non-existence will I be safe from all suffering.

I wish for no more pain and no more suffering, all I want is peace from this deeply undesirable existence that I never would had chosen that just causes so much suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, all I want is to be unconscious for all eternity, I just want to never suffer again, for me ceasing to exist will be the relief as only then will I be safe and at peace from all suffering, existence to me is always an abomination and I find it horrific how a human can suffer for so long just to die in agony from old age.
 
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Macedonian1987

Macedonian1987

Just a sad guy from Macedonia.
Oct 22, 2025
300
Sadly nobody knows with 100% certainty what awaits us after we die. But I hope that after I die I will go to another world where true unconditional love exists and there is no more physical pain and sadness. That's what I'm hoping for.
 
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yourmmomisabbitch

Member
Nov 8, 2025
13
Sadly nobody knows with 100% certainty what awaits us after we die. But I hope that after I die I will go to another world where true unconditional love exists and there is no more physical pain and sadness. That's what I'm hoping for.
i agree with this cute idea ^^
i dont want to be dead, just not alive in this world
ive hoped before that everyone who dies by suicide goes to suicide heaven where the world isnt so bleak because it's built by people who've suffered enough to see the other sides
 
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gothbird

gothbird

𝙿𝚘𝚎𝚝 𝙶𝚒𝚛𝚕
Mar 16, 2025
484
When I sleep, I understand death. The world folds shut, and everything slips into silence. No afterlife waits. No return. Only an ending.

There is mercy in that final dark. A vast, quiet expanse without pain, without thought. One day it will take me in, the way night takes the sky, and I will move toward the stars with nothing left to fear.
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
3,961
Yes to me Death is the only escape from a hell that's a trillion times worse than the worst hell one can imagine.

1 micro-second after my brain dies is Non-existence forever the only safety against extreme suffering, unbearable pain and extreme torture
 
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cemeteryismyhome

cemeteryismyhome

Elementalist
Mar 15, 2025
847
That's the annoying thing about death. I won't be able to enjoy it. But still better than being alive.
 
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woodlandcreature

woodlandcreature

tired | they/it | feel free to reach out
Apr 3, 2024
140
i don't know i just want it all to stop.
 
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happysunnydayy

happysunnydayy

CPTSD
Mar 18, 2025
105
Sadly nobody knows with 100% certainty what awaits us after we die. But I hope that after I die I will go to another world where true unconditional love exists and there is no more physical pain and sadness. That's what I'm hoping for.
Hopefully there's love 🥺
 
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Whale_bones

Whale_bones

A gift to summon the spring
Feb 11, 2020
517
I hope to not exist anymore, or at least not in a state of any sort of suffering or one where suffering can potentially rearise. I hope to not need relief anymore. Ultimately, though, I'm gripped by existential uncertainty. That's the primary reason I am hesitant to CTB. If I'm honest with myself, I don't actually know with any degree of certainty that it will lead to the permanent end of suffering. Death is just something that my mind gravitates towards because, well, this whole life thing just isn't for me, and apart from death, what's the alternative, right? But I can't rationally know if I prefer it, seeing as I don't know what it actually is (or indeed if there is anything that it is) on an experiential level (beyond death of the brain/body, I mean).

Same. I think it's likely that death leads to nonexistence, but I have no way to assess just how likely that is. And so I'm stuck without having any actual evidence or understanding of it.
 
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gunmetalblue11

gunmetalblue11

Dyslexic artist
Oct 31, 2025
87
Honestly I just don't want to be scared anymore. I'm tired. I just want as they say, the sweet release.
 
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