Relapse

[Doomcat]

It's been a long time since I've been here. I thought I was getting better (a year and a half of therapy and medications) but lately I've been feeling like I'm working so hard for no reason. I'm in the middle of a divorce and there is another man I think I might be in love with, but I don't think I am at all good enough for him. I'm pretty sure I'm too broken for love and I can't see any point to all this sadness anymore. I'm sitting in my bathroom, covered in cuts from a razor blade (not a suicide attempt, just needed to feel something). Apparently, I am not any better. I guess I just needed a safe place to vent. None of my friends understand the darkness that follows me, but I thought folks here would. Sometimes I feel that being suicidal is like being a recovered alcoholic. You can be better, but never "cured".

 

[Iwantoutrightnow]

Sorry you're feeling like this. Can you remember a time during the therapy that you felt better? Have you spoken to your therapist about how you feel things are now?