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Totally_nothin

Totally_nothin

Member
Apr 26, 2021
30
I will start with myself, as always: the girl I love doesn't love me back, and is with another person, I have no friends, I almost have no family, all my friends have turned their backs on me, and there is no pleasure in life for me, and the only reason I haven't killed myself yet? I couldn't hurt the people around me, but that has changed now
 
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WornOutLife

WornOutLife

マット
Mar 22, 2020
7,183
I just find this world and universe pointless and don't wanna get any older.
 
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Debbie Northampton U

Student
Oct 22, 2020
118
An inability to have relationships due to minus self-worth.
 
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nopointofliving

nopointofliving

Warrior
Apr 19, 2021
513
I never wanted to live for long time. As a kid, I wished to die at 23. I did I'm 29 years old and alive. I was all my life depressed and anxious, but never knew that. I thought my character was weak and silly. I never thought I had a serious mental problem, and my family never recognized that.

5 months ago, the love of my life broke up with me. It has broken me into pieces. I entered another dark depression episode. All my problems showed up; unemployment, loneliness, lack of money, not fit in society.......etc.

Why I want to CTB? I see this life is pointless and meaningless, I have nothing to do here. I have problems, and they make being here is more awful.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,679
I think it's the way my mind functions. I have always had depressive tendencies/anhedonia.I have physical health problems which are making me feel this way. I just see life as pointless anyway as we live just to die.
 
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Undefined

genetic trash
Feb 21, 2020
18
Because I'm both ridiculously ugly and borderline retarded. I hate my genetics.
 
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katesmith

Member
Mar 30, 2021
86
I feel really lonely, the pressure of succeeding with my work and making my family proud. I don't enought life anymore, everything just makes me angry really and I just want to escape this world becuase I don't fit in.
 
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sunnyflower

Member
Feb 11, 2021
22
I lost my son and life is unbearable without him in this world
 
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Neowise

Neowise

We fly and fly but never reach our destination.
Oct 7, 2020
516
Because I'm both ridiculously ugly and borderline retarded. I hate my genetics.
I'll have one of these plus the "toxic family, never loved" expansion pack.
 
du2497

du2497

Member
Mar 17, 2020
37
No social aptitude, no friends, no social life, no charisma, can't make money to save my life, generally just sick of life and don't really care anymore. "The kind of tired sleep won't fix" comes to mind.
 
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StringPuppet

StringPuppet

Lost
Oct 5, 2020
579
I'm unable to function as an adult
 
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avoid_slow_death

avoid_slow_death

Ready to embrace the peaceful bliss of the void.
Feb 4, 2020
1,356
Broken...cannot be fixed....
 
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Pisceslilith

Pisceslilith

Student
Aug 19, 2019
163
Trauma and I'm not normal
 
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A_miStake_of_NATURE

A_miStake_of_NATURE

I wish no one had to CTB..........
Aug 14, 2020
703
I'm worthless
 
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Ch92921

Ch92921

The call of the void
Dec 29, 2018
909
Because I am born faulty.
 
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ClownMe

ClownMe

Don't Cry for Me, I'm Already Dead
Apr 7, 2021
20,560
Life sucks and my family sucks.
 
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Storm225

Storm225

Member
Apr 14, 2021
19
Debt issues, past trauma, I'm ugly and obese, have had an ED since I was 2.

Life is meaningless and cruel. Karma doesn't exist
 
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brokenwaves

brokenwaves

i need to cross a border that’s hard to define
Feb 19, 2021
118
life filled with endless trauma, alongside severe mental illnesses i live with every second i am alive. i'm too mentally ill to work, or maintain relationships with people, or even enjoy the simplest things sometimes. even without all this, i find capitalist society to be awfully depressing within itself, i don't want to work my days away, having just weekends to myself (if i can even afford such a luxury), and as thanks for my servitude i receive just barely enough money to survive? i could go on forever tbh, i have more reasons to die than to live
 
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Downbylife

Downbylife

Member
Feb 27, 2021
62
Health issues, treatment not helping at all, feel like I'm living behind the wall for the past months
 
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orlandom

Mage
Mar 4, 2021
514
Just because I wanted to be born a tomato so that they could make a pizza out of me. But I was born human.
 
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WatermelonMel

WatermelonMel

Melon Master
Aug 19, 2019
408
Because of Asperger's. I've isolated myself from the world so I don't have to go through the mental torture hell of social contact or feeling watched and judged every second. I'm also not capable of holding a job and make a living on my own.

Any attempt to improve is futile and the world feels pointless.
 
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