Really want to ctb soon but made such a mess of it last time.

[Priestess]

I made a suicide attempt when I was 17. It was a huge aspirin od. It put me in hospital for 5 days and left me with stomach damage. Then I was discharged with no further help. Although years after that I was finally given 2 therapies and several antidepressants which did not help at all. Since then my problems have gotten worse, I've had cancer, a stroke, and have gone partially blind. I have chronic severe migraines and have been unable to work for years. I'm constantly in pain, worried that my next assessment will stop my benefits, and I'm living in an abusive situation that I can't get out of. I've had a lifetime of violent and sexual abuse and neglect. Since my last attempt I've talked to many people online about a suicide pact but something always went wrong. Either they backed out, had a stupid plan (one wanted us to go to america and try to get shot in a robbery), want me to do all the work, or turn out to be a pervert. I'm 38 years old and I've been suffering for my entire life. When will this end? I even contacted dignitas but they said I would have to pay thousands with no guarantee that they would even help me. I'm also massively obese now and can't stop stuffing my face with junk food.

 

[FuneralCry]

It sounds like you have suffered so much in life. It is such a horrible and cruel world that we live in, and people should not have to endure so much pain. I can imagine that it must be hard to carry on, going through all that and I know that it is awful when things just get worse. A peaceful exit from this life should be seen as a human right. I hope that you find freedom from what you are experiencing.