Discussion Ready to die

[theboy]

This weekend I will try CTB. I am nervous and very scared. I will jump from a 25th floor. I have a question, should I take my cell phone or not? I don't know how important this is.

 

[eternal_life]

This weekend I will try CTB. I am nervous and very scared. I will jump from a 25th floor. I have a question, should I take my cell phone or not? I don't know how important this is.

Oh man, I'm so sorry to hear that, that finally you can't take it anymore and you've decided to CTB so soon. I would be scared too, and I am someone who has also thought about jumping, and I am a person who has vertigo. I've lived in apartments on the 5th and 7th floors, and looking down already made me dizzy and scared, but I don't want to imagine 25 floors, it's a beastly height.

At least it seems certain that you would succeed in CTB. I'm not an expert on the subject, there are people here who say people have survived who have jumped from surprisingly high heights, but it seems almost impossible to me to survive 25 floors.

Are you totally convinced of what you are going to do? There is no way back? You can open me a private chat if you wish, I also speak Spanish. I would like to help you as much as I can, that is why we are in this forum, to listen to each other and help each other, but I will respect any decision you make. Un gran abrazo, mi amigo.

PS: I would carry my cell phone with me just in case, you never know if you might need it.

 

[Euthanza]

The phone probably will be broken if you carry down the phone with you

 

[flightless bird]

I'm so very sorry, hope you don't do it.

I thought a lot about jumping as well but I've always imagined a bridge and landing on water.

 

[Jrmull1993]

I have a question, should I take my cell phone or not? I don't know how important this is.

I don't think the phone will play any factor in this method, unless your phone has a case like the one in the below image.

 

[Hopeless1234]

This weekend I will try CTB. I am nervous and very scared. I will jump from a 25th floor. I have a question, should I take my cell phone or not? I don't know how important this is.

I think of jumping all the time. There was actually 2 people who successfully committed suicide by just jumping off the parking tower of a local hospital by me. I was actually planning to do it on Saturday....just hope I don't back out and if I don't it's successful.

 

[Someone123]

This weekend I will try CTB. I am nervous and very scared. I will jump from a 25th floor. I have a question, should I take my cell phone or not? I don't know how important this is.

I hope you find peace somehow. It would be intersting to knwo what country you are in- because I have heard this is a common method in Russia, where windows open up all the way up on tall buildings. In the U.S. it is rare, because getting access to a roof of a tall building is not easy to do unless maybe you are a maintenance worker in a building. If you are in the u.s. and you have picked out a building you may not be able to get access to the roof or to a window that opens that high.

 

[theboy]

I hope you find peace somehow. It would be intersting to knwo what country you are in- because I have heard this is a common method in Russia, where windows open up all the way up on tall buildings. In the U.S. it is rare, because getting access to a roof of a tall building is not easy to do unless maybe you are a maintenance worker in a building. If you are in the u.s. and you have picked out a building you may not be able to get access to the roof or to a window that opens that high.

I'm from chile
For better or worse, I find myself living in an apartment. Here in the city where I am, there are thousands of apartments.
Once I was in your situation and I thought of something "crazy": Meeting someone online (anyone) in their apartment and then going up to the terrace. Clearly, that person would not know my plan. It's the only way I could think of, at the time, to access a tall building.

Oh man, I'm so sorry to hear that, that finally you can't take it anymore and you've decided to CTB so soon. I would be scared too, and I am someone who has also thought about jumping, and I am a person who has vertigo. I've lived in apartments on the 5th and 7th floors, and looking down already made me dizzy and scared, but I don't want to imagine 25 floors, it's a beastly height.

At least it seems certain that you would succeed in CTB. I'm not an expert on the subject, there are people here who say people have survived who have jumped from surprisingly high heights, but it seems almost impossible to me to survive 25 floors.

Are you totally convinced of what you are going to do? There is no way back? You can open me a private chat if you wish, I also speak Spanish. I would like to help you as much as I can, that is why we are in this forum, to listen to each other and help each other, but I will respect any decision you make. Un gran abrazo, mi amigo.

PS: I would carry my cell phone with me just in case, you never know if you might need it.

Yes, I think that putting a blindfold on my eyes to avoid looking down is a good option.
I am convinced but very afraid and I feel very bad because I feel that death is waiting for me with the door open. Things have happened lately that I've been told to tell myself enough, come on!
I send you a private message

 

[jk9761]

This weekend I will try CTB. I am nervous and very scared. I will jump from a 25th floor. I have a question, should I take my cell phone or not? I don't know how important this is.

this is painful , why not use another method

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

I am afraid of heights so this would be one of the most terrifying things imaginable… I get frightened just thinking about it

 

[Worndown]

The phone will not take that trip any better than you will. If you do not want anyone to see your activity, take it with.

 

[Astume]

I don't think the phone will play any factor in this method, unless your phone has a case like the one in the below image.

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Put the phone on airplane mode so it doesn't fall.

 

[Hollowillow]

I read that people survived falling out of planes with a parachute that didn't open. I guess they slowed down doing the star instead of head first with arms & legs straight like a faster arrow. Is 25 floors higher than a bridge?

Maybe you can wait to see if the new events will settle down better... You seem nice. Just make sure you're sure? If you're scared, your will to live is still strong. Maybe wait until you're more at peace & totally sick of life? What happened? Is it a loss to your ability to make a living?

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand why you would feel scared. Jumping certainly sounds like a terrifying method and I envy those who have the courage for it. I hope that you find freedom from your suffering. Best wishes.

 

[theboy]

I read that people survived falling out of planes with a parachute that didn't open. I guess they slowed down doing the star instead of head first with arms & legs straight like a faster arrow. Is 25 floors higher than a bridge?

Maybe you can wait to see if the new events will settle down better... You seem nice. Just make sure you're sure? If you're scared, your will to live is still strong. Maybe wait until you're more at peace & totally sick of life? What happened? Is it a loss to your ability to make a living?

Thanks for calling me "nice." I don't know how tall a bridge is, but 25 stories is about 75 meters tall.
I'm sure but trembling. Believe me I'm tired. The pills camouflage this feeling, but I know I'm sick of it. Several things have happened to me, obviously, but I don't think I have lost my inability to earn a living, but rather that I don't find the meaning of my own life

 

[FrozenMango]

you can take the phone with you but leave it on the floor before you jump. I don't recommend using a blindfold. Losing senses is scary. TBH, your plan is scary please think about it

 

[theboy]

this is painful , why not use another method

does it really hurt?

 

[theboy]

you can take the phone with you but leave it on the floor before you jump. I don't recommend using a blindfold. Losing senses is scary. TBH, your plan is scary please think about it

Thanks for the tips. What is TBH?
Yes, it scares me too but I think it's the best method I have access to. I think I'm in a crisis. Anxiety increased and at night I wake up thinking about death.

 

[FrozenMango]

TBH = to be honest

 

[Maríasp]

Gracias por los consejos. ¿Qué es TBH?
Sí, también me asusta, pero creo que es el mejor método al que tengo acceso. Creo que estoy en una crisis. La ansiedad aumentó y por la noche me despierto pensando en la muerte.

Espera que pase la crisis, por favor!!
No hagas nada precipitado
Un beso muy fuerte

 

[outrider567]

I hope you find peace somehow. It would be intersting to knwo what country you are in- because I have heard this is a common method in Russia, where windows open up all the way up on tall buildings. In the U.S. it is rare, because getting access to a roof of a tall building is not easy to do unless maybe you are a maintenance worker in a building. If you are in the u.s. and you have picked out a building you may not be able to get access to the roof or to a window that opens that high.

True--NYC has a high suicide rate of people jumping from skyscrapers, but they don't jump from the roof, they jump from their own apartments

 

[Hollowillow]

Thanks for calling me "nice." I don't know how tall a bridge is, but 25 stories is about 75 meters tall.
I'm sure but trembling. Believe me I'm tired. The pills camouflage this feeling, but I know I'm sick of it. Several things have happened to me, obviously, but I don't think I have lost my inability to earn a living, but rather that I don't find the meaning of my own life

Yes kindness emanates from your posts. A sort of sad & nostalic tiredness.

I think that the meaning of life is just to live, nothing is more valuable than life... Health... Not status or cars. I lost health... Everything else feels meaningless... It also does alone without caring friends. I think we're just the universe being aware of itself, exploring all possibilities. I think humans traded life for safety, genuine food for fast convenience, love for porn... Just consumming to fill a void. Never stopping to fill needs & build something meaningful. Just lashing out at other slaves competing for crumbs... I wish I lived in a small village, gathering food all day, hunting, just talking around a fire... No taxes... No lord to set our village in fire... I wish humans stayed monkeys in trees... Or stayed fish in the water... We destroy what we explore... We poison ourselves... I failed life... I poisonned my home, or my new home poisonned me...

It's up to you to choose something meaningful. For me it used to be trees & admiring anime. Drawings coming to life. I wish I could come to life... The despair & shame & trauma I feel .. so weary I just want out. I wished for just 1 room where I could feel safe. It poisons me so much my lungs burns, eyes too much to watch tv, guts burn too much to eat, skin burns off, brain burns too much to think of a way out...

Thank you for opening up... It comforted me to exhange with someone... To be allowed my truth, without demands of being positive, without mental torture...

I thought that the point of my suffering was to teach society how to be healthier. But the companies makes us sick with full awareness, even on purpose. To control & exploit us...

I want out... I had a cheap housing, an immence luck & kindness, I cleaned it like mad, I was so scared to see it become moldy & insalubrious like my old home... I poisonned it, damaged the materials, caused a flood... Now I can taste the floors, sink, paint, everywhere I go. Each breath burns ... I couldn't sleep more than 4h. I'm happier when I'm so dizzy that I sleep 48h. I have the urge to die... People send me the cops when I try to open up, just for saying I come on this forum. But they don't help either. The chief of police said that I deserved the assault I had... Now that care if I die? Every hospital mocked my pain & called me a hypicondriac even when I got hit by a car & was bleeding... They left me to die. But they care if I give up living too?

There is no point in human life. But I think yours is probably the kindest, I wish the sadists killed themselves instead.

Best wishes