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Teardrop2021

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Aug 14, 2021
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I'm trying to have a rational discussion about euthanasia, but everyone freaks out about it and automatically thinks that it is "not the solution." So I will describe my situation here. I've struggled with mental health since I was in college (depression and severe panic attacks), but I was able to recover from my episodes in a decent amount of time with meds and behavioral changes. Prior to the pandemic I hadn't had an episode since 2006. However, when the pandemic struck I ended up having the worst episode of my life. Horrible panic attacks, a feeling of being stuck in fight or flight, feeling trapped and in despair. My psychiatrist put me on different meds, but nothing worked. We ended up moving back to where I grew up to be close to my family so they could help me out. I am 45 and needed to be cared for by my mother. Things improved slightly but then I relapsed and things went downhill again. More meds, more therapies and treatments, no improvement at all. That's when I came to SS and started planning my exit just in case. I was able to obtain N and Meto. It's stored in a secure place under lock and key. Honestly, if it were just me I'd do it, but my main reason for wanting to stay alive is my husband. I don't think he'd do well without me, and I wouldn't want him to do it if the tables were turned. On the other hand, I'm suffering so much and I feel like if people loved me, they would want me to be put out of my misery. Anyway, I am in a mental institution now giving it one last try to get better. My question is, how long should one be expected to suffer for the sake of someone else? I feel like either way, one of us has to suffer. I don't know what to do.
 
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FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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The way I see it, we have the right to take our own life at any time of our own choosing. We have no obligations to stay alive as we never asked to be here in the first place. I understand not wanting to cause others pain, but it is selfish for others to expect you to stay alive and suffer against your wishes. I'm sorry you are suffering so much, I hope you find the peace you are looking for.
 
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suisuiforum

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Jul 4, 2021
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There is a rampant societal bias for prolonging life without people's consent or consideration for its quality as opposed to quantity. While I believe that no morally upstanding society would deny euthanasia from fully-informed individuals capable of making such a decision, there are countless people I've encountered that will automatically discredit my stance out of some instinctual prioritization of life and inability to understand death as a logical reaction to longstanding dissatisfaction and unhappiness. I was previously open to hearing opposition against my beliefs, but no one has offered a counterargument that holds any water, especially not the "bUt PeOpLe WiLl MiSs YoU" rhetoric. It's nice that you care about the people in your life, but I could never stay alive wholly because of someone else's desires. I hope you'll improve your mental state regardless of what you choose to do.
 
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There is a rampant societal bias for prolonging life without people's consent or consideration for its quality as opposed to quantity. While I believe that no morally upstanding society would deny euthanasia from fully-informed individuals capable of making such a decision, there are countless people I've encountered that will automatically discredit my stance out of some instinctual prioritization of life and inability to understand death as a logical reaction to longstanding dissatisfaction and unhappiness. I was previously open to hearing opposition against my beliefs, but no one has offered a counterargument that holds any water, especially not the "bUt PeOpLe WiLl MiSs YoU" rhetoric. It's nice that you care about the people in your life, but I could never stay alive wholly because of someone else's desires. I hope you'll improve your mental state regardless of what you choose to do.
Thank you. I really hope my mental state improves as well. I really don't want to have to euthanize myself, but if my condition can't be successfully treated I am not willing to live in pain indefinitely. I wish so much I were not in this situation.
 
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